In His Mind

16.

MICHIKO

We sat around the kitchen table at Papi and Joy's place. I was trying everything in my power to calm down but I just couldn't. Every fiber of my being was radiating heat and hatred. Joy was rubbing my back trying to relax me.

"Breathe Michi"

"I can't!" I felt the tears ready to fall

"I know you're angry"

"Ma let me talk to her" I heard Rashaad

I felt her squeeze my shoulder before she stood up and walked out of the room.

"Michiko" he sat down across from me "Look at me"

I looked up glaring at him.

"I know you're mad----"

"Mad?! Oh I'm passed mad! I haven't been able to go to my own home in two days Rashaad! My baby can't even get into her school building without being harassed! This is exactly what I didn't want! I'm way passed fucking mad!"

"I get that" he sighed "But I'm right here with yall. It's fucked up and we can't control what people say but the cease and desist got sent to every blog you found. They took her picture down. I just sent the check over to her school for better security for the whole facility. I don't want you upset ma"

"I can't---"

"She can see it" he stressed "She doesn't understand what's going on and all she see is you pissed off"

I hung my head knowing he was right. I immediately felt bad for how I've handled things. I didn't want my baby feeling some type of away about my mood. It wasn't here fault and I was letting all this get the best of me. I shook my head before sitting back and looking at him.

"You're right" I sighed "But I don't know how to fix this. I don't know what to do"

"A few blogs been emailing my people about an interview to talk. I also had a radio interview with The Breakfast Club that they ask if I wanted to move it up. I think we should address it head on. I won't say anything you don't want me to say. I know the blogs want to interview us together..."

"My dude with Shaderoom & a friend I have at bossip offered me interviews... you want to talk to your wife first?"

"Michi"

"I'm not being shady" I shrugged sending a text to my friends about the interview"You know your wife will throw a tantrum if you 'make a decision' without her. I'm trying to keep the peace here. We got enough going on without her acting wild. Then it's gone piss me off and I'm gone go there. We just don't need that""

Rashaad was silent before picking up his phone. He started to step out the room but stopped. I raised my brow waiting for him to turn around but he didn't. Just before I stood up, he punch the wall near the door.

"Rah!" I yelled jumping "What the fuck?"

"What's going on?" Papi walked in concerned

"Rashaad what's wrong?"

He handed Papi his phone before walking out the room. I started to follow him but as he open the door and walked out the house. Shy walked in with pizza looking pissed.

"What---"

"We finna drag that bitch and aint nobody stopping shit"

"Huh?"

"You didn't see it?!"

"See what?"

Shy shook her head walking into the kitchen. Papi was sitting with his hands on his head looking stressed. I shook my head before picking of Rashaad's phone and seeing another blog post of an Instagram live.