The Butterfly Code

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Jin's lips parted eyes widening. He stood still, completely forgetting about everything going on. He only snapped out of it, when someone moved to stare directly at him, shaking his shoulders gently.

Jin blinked, shaking his head and looking at Hoseok. Before the dancer could speak, he gently moved him looking at the place again. She wasn't there, "What?"

"Seokjin, Why did you freeze?" Sijeon scolded.

Jin looked at them confused, "Did you not see..."

"See what?" Yoongi rose an eyebrow.

Jin blinked before shaking his head. Looking back in the mirror, he saw her again, this time behind him. Spinning around, Jin startled the others. His face seemed to brighten and then dropdown.

"Hyungie?" Jungkook pouted, "Are you alright?"

"Yes, yes. I'm fine," Jin frowned, "But...I'm gonna grab a drink of water again,"

He walked over to his bag. Taking a sip of water, he was about to put it back when he saw her again. This time, her face was centimeters away from him. Jin stared at her. Those eyes...those warm eyes...they looked so cold.

He blinked and she vanished again.

Jin took some uneven breaths, before standing up, shakily. The music began again and this time, Jin saw her, she spoke.

"JinJin...is that really the best you can do?"

He quickly broke formation, turning to talk to her, but looked shocked as she was gone. The music stopped and his members all glanced at him. Before they could ask, he heard someone whisper in his ear, "JinJin...why are you in this band again?"

"GET AWAY FROM ME!" Jin screamed, turning to shove her, but there was nothing but air.

He looked around the room. When he saw her near Namjoon, he ran forward, skidding when she vanished as she reached him. Panting, Jin was deaf to everyone calling him. No, his only focus was his mother.

Her voice sounded from everywhere, "Can you manage this?"

"Yes, I can!" Jin muttered, covering his ears.

"Can you really protect them? Don't you seem to just be hurting them more?"

"No, no, I'm...I'm protecting," Jin muttered falling to his knees, "I'm not hurting anyone!"

"Are you going to lie to yourself JinJin, didn't I teach you to be selfless,"

Jin shook his head, "Stop it! Shut up, shut up!!"

" You're worthless, the only reason you aren't going to come home is the simple fact that no one wants you back," it mocked, "And everyone is telling you to go home because they don't want you around either,"

He was about to answer, when his body was jercked forward and into someones hold. A hand gently pulled one hand down from his ear, soft breaths taking his place....and then Namjoon's voice, "Jinnie, listen to me. I need you to come back to me, okay? Everything is okay, you are okay,"

Sweet nothings were whispered into his ear and Jin pulled his other hand away slowly. And the words he had become deaf to, slowly registered. His eyes finally seeing himself curled up in Namjoon's embrace, his members seated on the ground beside them, while Mr. Son and Sijoen stood watching. One with concern and one with..well..boredom.

Jin felt cool tears paint his blossomed cheeks, but no sobs left his mouth. He just sat there sniffling and drowning in his pain, "I'm sorry, I...I.."