The Butterfly Code

42: 5 days left

October 9:

I found a perfect gift for Jimin.

I'm going to send it to the dorm early in the morning on the 13th. Then he'll get a surprise since we won't see one another till work.

I decided to walk to work on the day I get back.

Use the last drop of freedom I would get.

Away from work.

Away from Sijeon hyung.

Just me.

My luggage? I think I'll just send that with the package. That way he knows it's from me. Yes, that's perfect.

⚞☽☆☾⚟

My brother send me an email.

Eomma hasn't had another surgery.

But she hasn't woke up either.

He sent me a picture of her.

It was scary.

She look so pale.

Ghost like.

I wanted to hug her.

To see her.

She was always there when I need her.

I need her.

I'm starting to lose my mind.

Sijeon hyung is making me lose my mind.

He's sweet, but hurts me.

I love my dongsaengs, but they seem so much happier without me.

I needed my mother.

She somehow always knew when I was in trouble.

Maybe if I died, she'd wake up.

A life for a life.

That sounded nice.

Death.