Teddy where are you? (tk) ✔

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Two weeks passed

Two weeks since Jungkook locked himself away from everything and everyone in his room.

He's devastated, he's dead in eyes

He didn't go school because he can't bring himself see them without breaking down then and there.

His phone is dead for over a week, he didn't bother charging Afterall who'll want to talk to him and this thought make him chuckle bitterly.

He can't hate them, he loves them too much for that.

He keeps smiling and crying repeating their sweet memories and photos and gifts like  broken record.

His only escape is sleep and he wishes to sleep all day and night after all if he is not asleep then he is crying.

He is surprised that he didn't die yet ,he haven't stepped outside his room Even once to eat or drink and still whenever he slept with a grumbling stomach he woke up with a satisfied feeling and quenched thirst as if he ate in sleep.

He sleeps a lot because only then he don't feel lonely, he feels someone's embrace around his vulnerable body, his body relaxes and all the physical pain and constricted throat heals.

He can hear the sweet deep melody everytime he sleeps and unknowingly smiles.

He knows he is hallucinating but he's at that point of life that he'd rather accept his hallucination rather than stay alone, he just wants to be held and he don't bother by whom.

He formed habit of holding the teddy bear in his arms as if scared that it will also disappear as it was last held by jin hyung and got when jimin and hoseok were still his caring hyungs who loved him.

He sometimes talk to it about how much he was happy with his hyungs ,how much they mean to him though he don't mean nothing to them.

He wants to let it all out

But today he decides he'll not ruin himself completely like he did last time, he cried, he let himself break now it's time to get up and live, though it will be painful but he can't miss his studies for such long time.

So with heavy heart and slight headache he goes school, he got worried glances from others because he looks so lifeless, walking alone with a permanent frown.

Even teachers excused his lack of response because they could sense something is very wrong for a cheerful bright boy to disappear for two week and then come back as if brought back from dead.

He didn't go to cafeteria because he was sure all of them will be there happy without him and he is not ready to face them yet so he goes to roof .

He is sitting crisscrosseed on ground as air ruffles his hair causing pink dust to graze on his cheeks . He slightly smiles feeling fresh air again, looking at warm sky .

When loud thud is heard behind him he flinches at this sudden intrusion, he didn't even register when a small crying body embraced him, cursing him at same time.

They both were on ground as piri hugged him and cried and blabbering how much she missed him and was worried for him.

Jungkook is moved on how much she cares about him that she is crying, he feel tears threatening to fall from his own eyes as he embraced her tightly .

He mummers apologies and accepted every insult she give him and he oddly feel happy.

"y-you're a bastard"

"yes I'm a bastard "

"you're a big bummer"

"yes I'm a big bummer "