My WORLD in YOU ~

Chapter One: The Beginning

I don't know how to start this, but there was this boy whom I really love and still love. He was a senior and I'm only a junior. We became friends, maybe in my past ONLY. I knew him unexpectedly, that happened when I actually saved him. Before we met, I knew that he is the owner of our school and his routine was to flirt with a lot of girls and he's also "basagulero"? Yeah. Something like that.

I remembered that time when i fell with this kind of guy. Sucks I don't know and how it happened. When I point my eyes on HiM. I was so attracted coz' he's very handsome. Shit! Take note: VERY HANDSOME.

We got close? Yes. But I've done something wrong that makes him so cold and angry to me. I didin't know what went wrong. Things went so fast . I'm always asking for forgiveness but he's always pushing me away. I got paranoid that time and I don't know what to do.

Since then so many things happened. CRYING A LOT MADE ME WEAK AND GOING THROUGH THE PAIN MADE ME EVEN WEAKER. I was totally hurt. I didn't expect that those things can ruined our relationship with each other. I begged him, fortunately he gave me a second chance, but that chance was so brutal and I don't have any choice just to accept it.

Whatever we had nothing changed. Until many characters in our lives appeared. I've lost hope and have to let go to this kind of pain. For the last time, I said "thank you", "sorry", "I love you" and "Goodbye". I regretted doing that, I still love him and I want to get back our past.

All my life, all I want is to be with him. I can sacrifice my own life just for his own sake. I know this is all absession. I know that this is all my faut. What should I do? Can I sacrifice my own gladness just for him? I don't know. I really don't know.

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“Uyy. Kenn…! Cge na please??!” hinahabol kosiya that time. Gustong-gusto kosiyang kausapen, pero binabalewala niya lang ako. Know that FEELING? Habang tumatagal nare-realize kona ang hirap palang mafall sa ganitong klaseng lalake. Maraming magagalet at maraming karibal.

“Lintek. Ano ba? Wag mo nga akong sundan!” sigaw niya. Pero dahil mapilit ako, hinding-hindi ko siya tatantanan. Pagkatapos noon, napatingin siya saken na galit na galit, linapitan niyako at hinatak. “Uyy….” Yun lang ang nasabi ko dahil natatakot na talaga ako sa kanya. Kulang nanga lang umiyak nako >.<

“HINDI MOBA TALAGA MAINTINDIHAN YUNG MGA SINASABI KO AH??! HINDI KITA GUSTO, ALAM MOYAN? ANG PANGET- PANGET MO BUYSIT KA. PAG NAKAKASAMA KITA NAGMUMUKHA AKONG BASURA. UMALIS KANANGA SA BUHAY KO, PARANG AWA? PESTE!”

Maraming nakakita noon, pingtitinginan lang kame. Yung iba nagtsitsismisan na. Hindi ko alam bakit parang tumigil sa pagtibok yung puso ko. Ang saket! Iba to eh. Panget bako? Hindi naman ah. Bakit ba hindi niyako matanggap. Yung AKO, yung simpleng AKO. Lahat ginagawa ko para sa kanya! Pero bakit parang…. Paalis nasiya pero pinigilan ko. Gusto kong magpakatotoo sa kanya. Ayokong umalis siya sa buhay ko, diko kaya.

“BAKIT BA AH?” umiiyak na ako “TANGGAPIN MONAMAN AKO KAHIT PAPANO. WALA BA TALAGA AKONG USE SAYO? LAGI NALANG BANG GANITO? PAGKAKATAON? PLEASE KENN, BIGYAN MONAMAN AKO NG HALAGA. MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA.” Nabigla siya ng lumuhod ako. “ GIVE ME A CHANCE TO PROVE MYSELF AT MAPARAMDAM KO SAYONG MAHAL TALAGA KITA. MINSAN LANG AKONG MAGING SERYOSO SA ISANG LALAKE, AT NAKAKAINIS KASE SAYO PA TALAGA AKO NAGKAGANITO.”

“Gusto mo talaga ng chance?” I nodded and he smirked. Nakakainis yung tawang yun, parang may masama siyang balak. Argg. “OSIGE. I’ll give you, pero pag-iisipan ko muna.” Yun lang at umalis nasiya sa harapan ko. Tumayo nako at nag-ayos ng sarili.

Habang naglalakad ako palabas sa lugar na iyon, nakita kong marami talagang nakasaksi sa nangyari kanina. Tss. Wala nakong pake sa kanila,kahit mapahiya ako basta ang alam ko lang ay mahal ko si Kenn. Obsessed ba? HAHA. That’s life. Kahit marami pang hindrance sa feelings ko sakanya, isa lang ang alam ko paglalaban kosiya, no matter what happen. I won’t give up.