Thou Hath Fallen

Knock Knock~16

A truth hidden
A feathery kiss
  wakes

Kendra unaware of the storm that hovered round her, was coming into terms with motherhood and she thawed a little.Danny was in daycare and he was growing into one fine boy.
Much to her disappointment,the tears had ceased to flow.The mourning for a damned love was over.Fading into a distant memory kind of mocked the young woman's ability to love.Had she not loved so much that the burn was woven into her?
Blasted be fickle emotions!
But it was so real...Kendra would have sworn by it.

The constant flower deliveries were guilty for the smile playing at her lips.It was so old fashioned and kind of sweet how an exotic box of chocolate would accompany the bouquet.It was always the red rose among the whites that got her undivided attention.
Her reasonable self wondered who was her admirer then her giddy self would gloat and munch on the chocolate.
After all mystery was a heady elixir when it came to Cupid's ways.

She had suspected the all too perfect god gracing ,more or less,tainting the coffeeshop with his self absorbed attitude.
They were not friends to say the least but they were beyond the I cannot stand you phase.Could it be him- god of self idolisation?Her lady parts prayed fervently   that it be him.
And to think she would be more wary after her past sunken ship!
To understand this woman was a struggle in its own right.

Anyway,She took the folded note,inhaled of its forest and rain scent,sighed as she blushed of what was written therein.

Soon, daughter of sun our paths will meet.

Going about the kitchen as she prepared lasagna for dinner,she fancied herself with how her knight in shining armour looked.
Tall? Downright hot?A cheesy romantic?

The poor woman had her eyes cast up so high that she missed the mount of flame kissing wood below her.
He might have been a knight once upon never but one thing was for sure,the predator's armour was overdue its
shiny times.

Sanity could bid one farewell when it was needed the most.Our lady did hum and dance as she prepared the evening meal.If she only knew death's irresistible arms were a mere inches away,maybe then she could have done things differently.Maybe not.

A seed of desire planted,was eating at Kendra.She needed rather craved a marshy release.Tempting thoughts of going out and getting laid danced round and round her weak mind.Setting the meal aside and taking Danny to the Whites;

"Sorry Mary,for coming at such unexpected time."

"You always welcome dear.Anything wrong?"

"Not at all Mrs White,Just hoped if you could stay with Danny for the night."

With her judging face on,Mrs White inquired where the lady would be going and a feeling of déjà vu overcame Kendra and she hastily lied like she would have back in her teens.

"I really don't want to involve you Mary but my brother happened to have an accident"

"Goodness me! Run along child better yet take my car."

Hasty embraces were given.A son for a car exchanged and desire did win.Kendra was no irresponsible mother,just a woman who needed some big bad wolf talk and she needed it bad.Driving off, windows down and radioactive playing, she set out to Forks.
Lycassira her hometown was not her planned destination.Damned be Demeter if she dared set foot there!That town was just bad news.Anyway,this would not stop her from mocking the said town preferably by having good sex at its wretched outskirts.

Ways onward
Ways backwards
Crossroads
Results ignorant friend

It started raining.A fool stood aghast in the middle of the road and Kendra's lady parts grew cold.An accident instead of.... What perfect timing!

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The month was May.The year was 2001 and the dreaded day was the fourteenth.The day by societal rules, I was declared sane and fit for this wretched world.
Many a people would choose crazy over sanity in a heartbeat and because of that I as M  dared not pity my existence.
So, where do normal people stay? When do they sleep? What do they eat?Most of all how do they wake up!

Eleven was beyond torn apart as he clung onto me his breathing all ragged and his tears fresh and old hugging me in one last embrace.His eyes I dared not look into.His doll now set aside made me know whose friendship he'd rather keep.
Screaming at my retreating figure, you would have thought Eleven was my son and a son he was.

What difference was there between me and all those retreating figures in the world that was now welcoming me?Oh I know the difference!It had always been there-clear as day .M  shooed not his flaws.
I was no self righteous mongrel but I could sleep more at peace when I knew I was not the worst thing out there.

Normal M
Moral M
Societal M

I would better be damned than conform!Then again by not conforming had I not made party with all those other misfits?
Rose was right.I was trying too hard to make myself see how I was not like all of them.
At least when all other wordings to describe me failed,I could always results to the one clearly defined-human.

The world was not so welcoming after all.Eleven's screaming having been muted by the growing distance between I and the asylum, I could not help but feel lost.
No!I was not thinking about what would become of me but where I would start from.

Without so much as a compass and people walking hurriedly as they spared me not a second glance, the gloom over me felt more weighty.Rose was fidgety.I was trying not to keep track of my emotions.
Normal people knew when to repress what they felt right?

I would choose insanity over and over again if I could.Brown jacket and black slacks helped me not in feeling normal then what use were they to me if they failed their only purpose.
Not to worry Rose.I still have a head not to walk butt naked.

The accursed notes my old man gave me were still in my back pocket.Oh how I hated them and their previous owner more.
It was around twelve meaning I had walked for an hour without seeing the bus stop I had read about in books.
You know;the metallic structures that carried people.

As if on cue,my eyes did rest upon that thing and I went in like my fellow passengers.
Rose was humming as if aware of my people phobia and I stared at the moving trees.Lycassira was my only thought as sleep overcame me.

Remember those creepy images I used to have?They were back!
I think it had been raining and the stinging cold assured me that I was awake.
Then why was Scarlett (my faithful mental tormentor) caressing my brain now of all other times?

Disturbed, I alighted from the moving bus and into the pouring rain.I cared less about the people screaming at me.
Anyway,it was now around ten pm and I knew from ancient memory that Lycassira was not far off.I walked aimlessly on the deserted road as Rose and I tried to shush my roaring mind.

Then came the headlights
And I saw the light.