A marriage for Sex {JeonJungkook FF}

A fucking normal night

AUTHOR POV

The night went on and their conversation went with the flow, like two person who just met for the first time, and then like best friends who did not see each other in a long time, joking about stupid events, recalling memories of their days without getting too deep, both still afraid to reach an unwanted point.

The wine was quite helpful. They went from uneasy situation to casual young adult having a drink together.

Haneul (or Rina or Haeseung, you can name her however you want, she hates the name Rina and she can't used to Haeseung) thought about the day she will meet Jungkook millions of times. And even in her wildest dreams did not she think it will be this simple and comfortable.

Jungkook was terrified by the idea of sitting next to her and even now, he still think he is dreaming. Forgiving her was not hard. Well when you see the person you love the most die, when you feel that pain. When you believe that you will never see them again. Forgiving a lie is easier than wha he thought.

But forgiving doesn't mean Trust, does it ? For both them, this is a rocky subject. And a long way road. Will they get there one day ? Maybe. Do they want that ? Probably yes. But are they ready now ? For sure no.

They both matured. They both had their dose of pain, disappointments, lies and misunderstanding. They grow up and they learned a lot. If one thing is sure, Pain is your best teacher and failing this relationship was bound to happen with how stubborn they used to be.

Young, immature and angry.

They lost track of time, lost their selfs in this moment, enjoyed this freedom, Nothing else matters than what they're feeling right now. Peace.

Haneul told him everything about the last two years and he did the same including the meaning of his hidden tattoo that she didn't got the chance to admire through the media and now, she has them on full display.

Jungkook felt a spite of jealousy when she evoked her sexual life but he had already a hint after the discussion he had with Taehyung that he still wonder how he was able to restrain himself from acting impulsivly.

Jungkook knew the feelings Taehyung felt for Rina and Taehyung knew that Jungkook was aware of it. But this subject was a taboo, until a few hours ago.

One had to be honest and one had to be understanding.

That's a part of growing up, what may seems like impossible to accept a few years ago can be understandable now. Understanding is not accepting.
Understanding is looking at things under a new lights. and that's exactly what Jungkook did.

He was his best friend and she is his ex-wife. They are still legally married but what's marriage on a paper when the hearts are away from each other.

Will he let a kiss destroy this wonderful friendship ? No, not even sex can do that. They are brothers.

Will he be more angry at her for letting him into her life ? No, he was jealous. But that was their Fate. Coincidence ? That doesn't exsit. It's another name we gave destiny.

And as for being angry? They already had enough in their bags.

Jungkook excused himself to the bathroom and Haneul just chrugged down her cup looking up.
When did I stop looking at the stars? She asked herself. Getting lost in them, all worries can wait for tomorrow. Work, life, friends, and family can wait.

This night is hers. This night is her escape to wonderland. And tonight she will just enjoy herself.

By the time Jungkook was back, she was in dreamland. Laying on the couch hugging her robe close to her body.
She looked soft and innocent as usual. He missed her. He missed her like hell. And she is here. He wanted to hug her. He wanted to kiss her. He also wanted to yell at her. He wanted to cry on her shoulder. 

But at the end, he just stared at her sleeping like old days.

Putting the past behind, securing the old memories in a safe box. And moving forward. that was their plan. Tonight was memorable, Tonight is his best in forever. 

Both wanted to move forward, both wanted to live, to be free, to love and be loved and ther was absolutely no need to voice it. They decided silently, to forgive and move forward.

For once, both will be allowed to make their own decision without pressure, without orders and without threats. Both are adults and both are mature and ready to face the outcomes of their actions.

Jungkook put his hands under her neck and knees. Effortlessly, he moved her to the closest room, hoping it's hers. Putting her under the covers and walking out leaving the door ajar.

He cleaned the balcony, and looked up, it was already 4am in the morning. His hyungs are coming here tomorrow. Well she still doesn't know. Kind of surprise thing  but it gave him the perfect excuse to just use the couch to stay with her. afraid this dream will come to an end. 

AN// 

I hope you enjoy that chapter. I've been writing this story for a long time and just like any of us, we grow day after day, we feel new things, we discover new places and new feelings.

I hope you are able to feel the developpement of the characters, I know I lack a lot when it comes to grammer, orthographe. I am sorry, english is not my first language. 

and I am always open to critisim. 

DM, I need friends. I feel so lonely lately. I don't know if I am the only one but I always end up cancelling plans to go out and meet people and when I stay home. I feel sad :p

I will shut up . LOVE YOU GUYSSSS THANK YOU