A marriage for Sex {JeonJungkook FF}

Can I choose death?

RINA POV

"where is my ba--by?" I questionned a hand placed on my stomach and upon hearing my question Changwook looked away.

" No, no, don't give me that look, you are a doctor no" I almost yelled, tears started to roll on my eyes and he just looked down mumbling "I am sorry".

"give me back my baby" I wanted to yell but he tried consoling me with words I did not even hear.

After few minutes passed, he informed "I will call Jungkook and we will proceed with the check up"

"No, I want to be alone"

"Rina..." 

"Doctor, please" I begged

"I will give you 24 hours, not a second more" He never knew that he will regret this decision later.

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The sun went down and I was still lost in thoughts looking outside of the window until a phone started ringing, a phone changwook placed in case of emergency.

-Oh, hello I answered

-I did not thought you will answer so how do you feel?

-Why did not you save him?

-I am sorry, I tried my best but you were in a critical situation when they bought you in.

-I miss him, is it normal? I asked but before I can here a reply I could her the heels of my mother in law and I just hided the phone and closed my eyes.

"Why is she still alive?" She yelled at someone that I assumed was her assistant as soon as she walked in.

"I am sorry Ma'am"

"You can't even do your work proprally, you have until tomorrow I want her gone, did you understand GONE without any traces? and I don't care how you do it." she stated getting closer to my bed and my heart almost stopped at her words. Shock ? fear? this a monster.

"Finally, I am getting my revenge on him" she mumbled at my face, her silhouette was too close to the bed.

I did not budge, I did not move or even opened my eyes even after she left I did not utter a word and suddnely, I heard someone walking in the room. Is it the end?

Flashback (author pov)

She walked out, anger filling every inch of her soul, he dared to ask if it was his baby, I wish to die rather than hearing that, she stated to her self.

As if the deity heard her wish, even though it was a wish out of anger, that's why we are always told to be careful what we wish for. she just felt a very strong light blinding her eyes and suddnely, something hit her, pain? sadness? Blood? Anger? 

She was either filled with those feeling or else she was not feeling anything. When her head hit the ground and terrible pain made her arch her back, the only word she was able to utter before darkness fill her world was ' my bab--b-y'

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Soon she was attached to all kind of engine to have an operation as soon as possible, she lost a lot of blood and according to her doctor, one must die either her or her child and it will always be one of the most difficult choice for a doctor.

Ji Changwook was her doctor, he was not only a gynecologist but also a surgeon and to be honest, operating in one of your friend will affect you no matter how professional you are and honestly, she was a close friend for him, True that she was his patient but she has this Aura around her that she ca be friend with anyone and anything, she was an easy going woman, she had a difficult life that many may be envious of and that's why she always tried to do her best, because to win something you have to lose as much and she was losing her sanity in this life.

As soon as changwook was out of the surgery room he was just attacked by a bunch of men coming at him " How is she? "

"Is she awake?" Jin questionned

"is she alive? How is her baby?" Taehyung asked.

"Where is her husband?" The doctor asked looking for the only familiar face he saw a few times 5 months ago.

"I am he--err-e" he was stuttering, tears running down his cheek, trembling like a leaf, the accident happened at the very wrong time and he is blaming himself. what if I came earlier? what if we did not fight? what if I holded her? 

"I am sorry to inform you that we could not save.." his words were cut short by Jungkook holding his collar, " Save her, I don't care, take everything and save her"

"Sir, She is alive, the baby could not survive, she is still  in coma and we need to watch her evolution, she will be transfered to the private room in a few minutes, you can see her over there, now if you may excuse me" He walked away to breath, he did not know why but he was suffocating. 

End of the flashback

Jungkook POV

To say the least, the last 2 weeks were the most horrible in my life, I can't focus on anything, Work? life? the guys? I was spending my nights and every free second on the hospital. Blaming myself became a habit and a daily routine. 'she will be ok'

'Be strong for her' 'she will forgive you' 'she loves you' Those words were supposed to lift me up but I can't understand what people are saying, as if they are making it more and more painful.

Today, I was holding her hand again, my tears filling my eyes, I wonder how can they not dry until now? 'Rina, if you are hearing me, I want to tell you I am sorry, Sorry for everything, sorry for being a bad husband, me sitting next to your bed, holding your hand while you were unconscious feels like  a deja vu and it's the case, I don't know if it's because of me or if I bring all this bad luck when I am around you but I love you and I can't live without you. I am sorry for what I said, please wake up and give the chance to make it up to you, I am sorry I forgot my promise and I am sorry I doubted you......' He kept on apologizing and repeating the same thoughts over and over again, it was his only consolation. 

AN// 

I am trying my best to update more since I have a little bit of inspiration. 

Without any shame, I am going to advertise my new story called their woman, it will be completely different from this one. A short romantic polyamory comedy style so if you have some time to spare, try to check it. 

As for this one, I am thankful for all your feedback. Please do not hesitate to give me advices, thanks to you I get better

Love you all