Hold my heart, it's beating for you anyway

Chapter 39

I must have fallen asleep on the sofa again as I wake up to my phone ringing.
"Hello" I mumble sleepily.
"Cate? Are you ok?"
"Yeah. I just dozed off and you woke me up. I was bored and I guess sleep got the better of me."
"I miss you" he tells me. A tear runs down my eye. I'm not going to cry. It won't be much longer.
"I miss you too but they do say absence makes the heart grow fonder" I say, trying not to sound upset.
"I don't think my heart could grow any more fonder of you" he says, a smile in his expression. I want to feel his arms around me. It's been too long already. Or so it seems. He must sense my sadness as he whispers "I love you, Cate" and I find myself smiling.
"I love you too Jaime" I say back. We chat a bit longer and he tells me he has to go as they're about to go on stage. I go upstairs and run myself a hot bath and go to bed. It is getting late and I know the girls don't sleep in.

The next couple of weeks drag by so damn slowly but eventually I hear the tour bus pull up one afternoon and Jaime and Tony burst into the front room, both with huge grins on their faces. Scarlett jumps into Tony's arms shouting 'Dada' and Jaime picks me up, swinging me around. Anwen is asleep so he tiptoes up the stairs to check on her.
Tony gets Scarlett and heads home and later on that night as we are lying in bed, cuddled up after making love for the first time in what feels like forever, I move Jaime's hand to my stomach and tell him to say hi to his baby. He looks at me, shock on his face. Why? This was his idea. He pulls me to him and kisses me.
"I wasn't expecting that" he whispers.
"I noticed" I mumble, my voice almost breaking. He gently pushes my hair off my face before kissing me again and falling asleep. I toss and turn all night, barely getting an hours sleep. I give up somewhere in the early hours and wrapping my dressing gown around myself, I make my way downstairs. I flop down on the sofa, tears pouring from my eyes. I haven't felt this sad and scared since I lost Owen and Rhys. He wanted this. It was his idea.