Mirror - 1D Fanfic

Chapter 20

I walked downstairs and into the kitchen, pangs of hunger shooting through me. I heard someone walk in behind me.

" No, Chandler, it wouldn't make me happy! What would make me happy is getting my best friend back!! " Lauren said loudly.

I whipped around and glared at her. " Then maybe you shouldn't have said something that would ruin our friendship!! " I screamed and tried to push past her but she caught me in her arms.

" Look, I know what I said was wrong but- "

" But nothing!! You broke me a lot more than anyone I truly loved ever could because I thought you'd always be there to support me!! " I shouted, thrashing out of her arms, tears streaming down my face.

Lauren had tears running softly down her face too. I shook my head and looked down at the ground. " You made me feel even more worthless than I already did. " I whispered before walking slowly out of the room and up the stairs.

I passed by Brooke who grabbed my wrist to stop me, causing me to flinch from the pain. My cuts were still fresh.

She pulled my wrist up to look at the bandage and she eyed me. " Did you..? "

I sighed and nodded, pulling my wrist away softly.

" Chandler, why do you keep doing this to yourself? " she whispered.

I looked down at the ground. "Maybe if I die, I wouldn't cause everyone so much trouble. " I said before walking upstairs and into my room.

Brooke stood on the stairs a while before I heard her walk downstairs and most likely into the kitchen.

I sat down on my bed, ignoring the hunger that still lingered over me. Kaitlyn wasn't in the room and I didn't know where she went.

I turned and looked at the mirror. I studied the way the frame circles the glass. After what seemed like forever staring at it, I stood up and walked over to it.

I stood in front of it and stared at it some more. I lifted my hand to touch the glass but then let it drop back at my side.

" You should go over there. " Kaitlyn's voice said behind me.

I shook my head and looked down. " They don't want me over there. "

She sighed. " That shouldn't stop you. You need to go fix this. "

" Fix what? " I asked, turning around. " You can't fix things that aren't broken.. " I trailed off.

She stepped closer. " Who's to say they aren't broken? I know Lou is.. Zayn should be too. "

I chuckled. " He's not broken over me. If anything he's happy I'm gone. "

" You don't know that Chandler.. here sit down. I think I should tell you something. "

We both sat down on the edge of my bed and she looked up at me. " Harry told me that Zayn has never acted this way towards anyone...he's never cried over someone before, not even his old fiancé. "

She glanced at the mirror, then back to me. " He needs you just as much as you need him. " she whispered.

I stood up slowly and nodded, turning to the mirror. " Come with me.. "

She stood up and we both walked over to the mirror. She motioned for me to go first and I did reluctantly.

When I stepped into Louis' and Harry's room, I saw Louis laying on his bed, throwing a tennis ball up and catching it repeatedly. The area around his bed was destroyed completely.

He sat up and looked at me with a sad smile. " Look who's back. "

I gulped and looked down, playing with the gauze around my wrist. Kaitlyn whispered in my ear that she was gonna go find Harry and I nodded.

As she left, Louis got up and walked over to me. He looked down at me and bit his lip. He gently grabbed my arm and pulled it so my wrist was between us.

" What's this? " he asked quietly.

I averted my eyes. He went to unwrap the gauze but I stopped him.

" D-don't. "

He raised a questioning eyebrow.

" I-It... they.. they'll b-bleed everywhere... "

His eyes flashed with pain as he realized what it was.

" Chandler why would you- "

" Because it's the one thing I can't screw up. " I interrupted him, tearing up.

He didn't say anything. He just shook his head and dropped my arm before pulling me into a hug. He held me tight and I melted into his warm embrace.

We heard someone walk in and he let go of me, pushing me away. I looked up at him in confusion and then to the door.

Zayn stood there with a black eye and a bruise on his cheek. He was glaring at Louis and I wiped the tears away from
my eyes but they kept running down my face.

" Wh-what's up..? " Louis asked.

" Kaitlyn's here.. said that Chandler was here too.. " Zayn trailed off looking at me.

His eyes softened as he saw that I was crying. I scoffed.

" Why do you care? " I said, venom laced in my voice.

He opened his mouth to say something but I shook my head and pushed passed him. I walked down the stairs quickly, looking for Kaitlyn.

I stepped into the livingroom and Harry stood up, seeing me. He ran up to me and hugged
me tightly, refusing to let go.

" Oh my god I missed you " was all I heard him say.

I hugged him back but I heard someone walking down the stairs. This time Harry didn't let me go to look up like Louis did. He held me tighter.

I heard Zayn clear his throat behind us and Harry let go but only to step in front of me. Zayn was glaring at him and they were having a stare off or something.

" I need to talk to Chandler. Alone. " Zayn said, jaw clenched.

" She doesn't want to talk to you. " Harry spat.

I sighed loudly and walked away from the two. I walked into the kitchen and looked for Kaitlyn, but all I saw was Niall. He gave me a dirty look.

I walked back in the livingroom. Zayn had disappeared and Harry was sitting on the couch with an angry look. I walked up the stairs, ignoring him as he called my name.

I sighed and gave up as I couldn't find Kaitlyn. I was just about to go back to our mansion when I soft hand wrapped around my wrist, making me flinch.

I looked back and into the soft caramel eyes that enticed me from the beginning. He pulled me towards him and I felt like I was in a trance.

Suddenly, his lips were against mine, and mine against his, in a passionate kiss.