Choices

Chapter 52

As odd as that sounded, especially for me, I was actually fine with it this time. He felt left out and behind the others. And if anything, I probably preferred him over the others anyway with his limits. His limits gave me a sense of want making me hungry for more of him.

What am I even saying? There really is something wrong with me.

I fell back onto my bed sign. Maybe therapy isn't such a bad idea. I rolled over to my side and saw my book bag it by my bed. As I looked at it a name popped in my head.

Drew.

Crap he must be freaking out by now. I wouldn't be surprised if he showed up here again like before.

I got up and walked over to it and opened it up looking for my phone. I found it at the bottom and took it out hoping it was still alive. I turned it on only to see 1000 missed calls and texts.

God how clingy is he?

I ignored them all and just went to texting him.

'Sorry for not responding. I'm fine I'll see you tomorrow.'

There, that should keep him from coming over.

Immediately I started getting a call from him and answered it just to make things easier.

"He-"

"Sam! Oh god. I'm so sorry! Please forgive me! I didn't mean to act out like that. I'm sorry. You're alright, right? Are you home? Can I come over?"

"Woah, Drew, calm down."

He took a deep breath.

"I'm sorry. I just- ugh- I shouldn't have done the things I did. I'm sorry."

I rolled my eyes.

"I get it, you don't have to say sorry a million times."

"But I am!"

"I know but I'm not going to easily forgive you."

There was a bit of silence.

"Fine. I understand. What I did was wrong. You're free to do whatever. And that includes relationships."

"So you finally understand that we're no longer together?"

"Yes. And I also understand that I'm going to have to fight much harder."

I groaned.

"Drew just give up."

"Why? Is what he said actually true?"

The 'he' Drew was referring to was Sebastian.

"No but I can't be with you. You know that."

Now he was the one to groan.

"Again with your brother? It's been a year! Let go of and Samantha! He's gone! Don't let him hold you back!"

His words hurt and anger boiled inside me. But I push it down and felt my empty feeling from the mention of my brother.

"I don't need you to tell me that."

He really did seem angry at me. Why? It was pretty obvious. He was mad at me for caring about my brother too much.

"It's been a year. Suck it up and move on. Because guess what, he's never coming back."

That really did it for me. His words stab me right through the heart. Hot tears stream down my face.

Why? Why was he doing this to me? Wasn't he just saying sorry to me from before?

"I can't just keep waiting in the background for you to come by. I still love you. We never should have broken up. I take back what I said. You're not free to have other relationships. You're mine. Can't you see that?"