𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐲𝐚𝐫𝐝 𝐛𝐨𝐲 / 𝘢𝘬𝘢𝘢𝘴𝘩𝘪. ✓

-twelve

(listen to the music above, while reading for the feels HAHAHAHA)

It has been a week.

You pretended to be Akaashi in the groupchats and uh..well, they kinda found out.

Because Bokuto doesn't know how to shut his mouth. (but u don't actually hate him bcs he's such a cutie-)

Through the week, Akaashi hasn't messaged you. You thought maybe it was because of the phone.

So you asked bokuto on how Akaashi was doing.

oh.

you felt your heart break a little.

You turned off your phone and decided to sleep early.

A few hours passed and you couldn't get yourself to sleep. It was already midnight and everyone else was sleeping.

You grabbed your phone and started scrolling through instagram.

But you wished you didn't.

Hah..

Tears started pouring out of your eyes, and you started sobbing. Thank the heavens it's raining hard. Your mom and your grandparents won't hear your cries.

You didn't even know why you started crying. Did you even have the right?

You're not his girlfriend, you're not really that special.

You just happened to cross each other's lives, stay for a while, then leave.

-

You just sat there, crying while listening to music.

"could you hold me without any talking?"

"we could try to go back where we started."

"i don't even have stay."

After a while, your eyes felt heavy and you drifted to sleep.

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The morning came, and the light from your window hit your eyes, causing you to squirm and open your eyes.

You looked at the clock beside you and it read 7 AM.

While washing your face in the bathroom, you thought of an excuse for your swollen eyes.

-

"What happened to your eyes?" Your mom asked you while eating breakfast.

"Watched 'a silent voice last night." You answered and smiled at your mom. "It was sad, if you watched it, you'd cry too, mom." You said, trying hard not to cry because you just lied.

She seemed to buy it, and didn't ask anything else.

-

A whole day has passed, with you trying hard to look normal infront of your relatives. They already had their own handful of problems and worries.

You didn't want to add up to their problems too.

After washing the dishes, you went straight to your bedroom and watch netflix as usual.

Before you could open your laptop, you heard a knock on your door.

"Come in!"

The door opened and you saw your mother's figure enter your room.

"Hey mom ^^" You flashed a smile on her.

"What are you doing Y/N?" Your mom asked.

"I was about to watch netflix..you want to watch with me?" You offered and smiled.

"Stop smiling, Y/N. I know you're not okay." Your mom spoke.

You were frozen.

A thin layer of water started forming up in your eyes.

"What?"  You responded, and held back the tears forming in your eyes.

"Something happened last night, right?"

"Yea, I was watching a super sad and depressing anime movie that lasted for 2 hours." I responded, trying to lighten the mood and get my mom to leave.

"I heard you last night, you're not okay."

"I'm okay, mom." Your voice became a whisper.

"Y/N, stop pretending to be okay when your not. Please?" Your mom's voice cracked on the last word.

And with that, you broke down.

You hugged your mom and cried

and cried.

You didn't want to tell her, and she seemed to know that.

There was no talking, just you crying.

"It's okay, Y/N. It's okay." Your mom spoke in your ears and started caressing your back to comfort you.

A few minutes have passed and you fell asleep in your mom's arms. She tucked you in bed, and left your room.

You opened your eyes, "thanks mom."

You whispered and went back to sleep.

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hi HAHAHHA sorry for the late update akdndj school work took up a lot of my time. And also went through a few breakdowns :c but I feel okay now! I'll try to update tomorrow, at the same time this chapter was posted! :^^

Have a good day/night and stay safe :))

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