Tainted Love [ Zarry ]

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝙷𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜

Johnny PoV:

After last Friday I wasn't the same...I know it.

Everything became clearer, I didn't wanted to fake it anymore I didn't wanted to pretend my emotions, my feelings but most important my happiness.

My happiness that wasn't anywhere to be seen...

I realized my happiness didn't existed... I could have everything in life, I can go to Marrocos tomorrow to relax, I can leave right now and go where ever I want to go, I have a huge house, I have a massive garden with a pool, I have my dogs, I have my family, I even have a wife but still I'm not happy.

I feel happy sometimes but only for seconds... It's not constant happiness, I don't have the urge to go back home because my wife is waiting for me...

I don't know when was the last time that I gave a real smile.

The only time I feel relaxed and myself is when I'm playing and with the band, is so restful.

The guys know me for 2 years now and they always mess my mind up with who do I always write about, I told them it was my wife and they didn't believe it.

Alice, I mean...Vincent, he says it's an imaginary girl meanwhile Joe believes it's someone from my past.

I think it's both...

Whoever it is I do need to fix it, first for myself I need to stop living in this illusion so I decided to tell my wife the truth.

I'm in the table of the dinning room sitting in the chair with the dinner in front of me waiting for her to arrive from some party .

"hum- Mr. Depp?" My waitress questioned, I looked at her and nodded waiting for her to proceed "Is there anything else you want me to do?"

"No, Pamela. You can leave, thank you"

"Alright, thank you sir! Good night" she said leaving me alone

"Good night" I breathed looking at the food in front of me, I wasn't hungry, I was tremendously nervous. Knowing Vanessa this wouldn't end well...

The hours passed and it was already eleven o'clock I was going to give up when I heard some laughs followed by the door lock opening.

I closed my eyes and focused on the sound of her shoes stepping on the floor, her walk was uncoordinated and there were giggles.

She arrived to the living floor and saw me, her smile grew but her eyes were dead and red.

"Hello baby" she walked near me and tried to gvw me a kiss on the lips I moved her away. The smell of cheap nicotine was all over her "what's the matter she asked" contaminating the air with alcohol and some weird other smells that I couldn't decipher.

"Can you sit please, Vanessa?" I asked politely

"Yeah" she dragged herself to the chair from the other side of the table, we were front to front, separated by a table and food.