Tainted Love [ Zarry ]

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"FUCK YOU" he screamed, I could feel his breath in my face and the scent of weed, candy cotton, and alcohol in the air

"FUCK YOU I DONT NEED YOU " the moment I said this a pair of lips smash with mine.

My mind and heart didn't work. I was numb, in cloud nine, floating in the air, almost two years have been through and he can still make me feel this way, so weak, so submissive, so passionate, so fragile, so small and delicate, in complete devotion and tenderness.

He moved his lips and I joined him following his moves, our lips moved in sync, in pure synchronization. I felt his hand touch my cheek and caressing it, like I was a porcelain doll that could break any time. I must admit, all this sweetness was softening me, was weakening me but then how couldn't I be weak? With that smell that I learned to recognize from a thousand miles away, the sweet scent that called his name, the beautiful boy created by God a pure beauty, how couldn't I?

It felt so right yet so wrong, I am here physically but I am not mentally I'm thinking about what if this is all set up, I'm all about negative thoughts, it's not my fault it's his, he made me this way.

His lips still fit in mine like two jigsaw piece, like it was meant to be, like the song, something's are meant to be, this felt like it was meant to be but what if it wasn't meant to be what it was meant to be another heartbreak... What if he just wants to break me again, what if he knows my weak spot and he is trying to play with that what if he knows what's my weakness

What if he knows my weakness is him

We separated to breathe, I looked at him in the eyes, he looked at mine too, green and gold, my hearth seemed to be functioning again and faster, his breath was heavy and fast due to the moment we just shared.

"I - I'm sorry " he said, I was shocked he said sorry that didn't happen in such a long time...what was this? Was all of this product of my imagination?
"I really had to do that"

" I- I'm- Uh-" I couldn't talk or even form words I was caught by surprise... I think I'm still in recovery

"Look I don't expect you to understand... I don't but I don't know why but when I was singing that my body turned to you automatically it wasn't my fault I just... It felt right to do it... The song did tell some truths and I felt like a need to do that I'm sorry I didn't want to-"

I was done of him talking I grabbed his face and pulled it to me and kissed his lips, he was caught by surprise, he was shocked, but quickly he keep up with me I opened my mouth giving him access to explore he immediately took the opportunity to examine the area, my mouth and tongue were delighted of the known warmth and shape traversing every corner.

Our make out turned hotter and hotter every second, it's like we were starving, we were hungry, we were hungry for each other, we needed each other as much desperate it may sound, at least, I NEEDED HIM.

I NEEDED HIM

"Fuck" he breathed once we separated, he looked me straight in the eyes our breaths were being changed, the climate was hectic and I loved it, I missed this, I wanted this but did he wanted this or did he missed this?

"HEY GUYS" I heard J's voice getting closer I noticed he heard too because of his facial expression. I looked at him with a worried face and he closed his eyes and nodded with his head telling me to play it cool.