“Can’t you see it?
I’m not trying to mislead you
I promise falling for me won’t be a mistake”
I know she don’t want to talk to me but I need to see her. I don’t want to give up on us. I can’t continue without her. It would just be getting by but it wouldn’t be living. I don’t know why she never admitted to loving me or if I am just imagining her feelings for me. I hope not.
When we were together she kept joking around about how I could get any girl I wanted and why I would want her. I’m not sure she was kidding anymore.
I have one last shot to make her believe that I’m not stringing her along. Even if our relationship lasted even shorter than my usual ones, I’ve never fought for a girl like I have for her. I don’t know why she doesn’t see it but I have to convince her.
I would do a grand gesture and show up singing at her door but knowing her, she would think that it’s a joke and that won’t help my case. So I approach it differently. I’ll stop her on her way home from work and I’ll make her hear me out. One problem is that she’s always running away when I’m trying to be honest.
I push the stalker thoughts to the back of my mind as I spot Freya walk home on the same route she always take. The sun is going down and it is casting a beautiful light over everything. That might help me.
“Freya,” I call softly and she spins around.
“What are you doing here? I told you, that was a one-time thing. We’re not together.”
“I know but I have one last request for you. If you just hear me out then I’ll leave you alone forever if that’s what you want,” I say with my voice barely under control. I would hate if she said that she would never see me.
She crosses her arms defensively but stands still and don’t speak.
“I know you think we’re bad for each other. I know you probably think that I’m some illusion and that you’re going to fall through a trap door if you let yourself love me…”
“I’m leav…” she interrupts and starts to turn away.
“No, please don’t,” I say and close the distance between us. “Can’t you see it? You don’t want to hear me out, but you must! I love you. I’ve never loved someone as intensively as I do you. I’m standing here with my heart on my sleeve. We could be magic together.”
She looks into my eyes and her lower lip trembles.
“I’m not good enough for you. You deserve better. You shouldn’t, couldn’t love me.”
“I’m not trying to mislead you. Why would I lie to you so many times? I do love you and I don’t want anyone else.”
A single tear runs down her cheek. I can see that her defences are coming down and instinctively I pull her into a hug. She hesitates only a second before she wraps her arms around me too.
“I promise falling for me won’t be a mistake,” I whisper. “Please don’t be afraid to let your emotions show.”
She sighs deeply and I feel it against my chest. It feels like she’s finally relaxing. I hope it isn't because she getting ready to let me go forever but because she does feel the same way. I have this nagging worry that maybe she doesn't love me. Still, I know that I wouldn't have forgiven myself if I hadn't done everything in my power to show her that I actually do love her. She deserves to know that and even if I have said it numerous times, I feel like she hasn't believed me. Hopefully, she will now.
“Promise?”
“I promise,” I say as she pulls away just enough so that we face each other.
“Good,” she says with a smile. “Because I’ve already fallen for you.”
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Solos from FOUR
FanfictionA short love story based on and inspired by Louis Tomlinson’s solos from the album “FOUR”. As we progress through the songs, so does their relationship.
