Bellarke Oneshots

Don't leave, I need you.

Warning! Smut ahead!!

"When she tries to leave after mount weather he says he can help her heal, then starts making out with her and they end up against a tree outside Arkadia"

I've been working really hard to try and catch up with all my oneshot requests, so I'm so sorry this took so long!
Request by TurquoiseOilLady

I hope you enjoy!!
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"If you need forgiveness... I'll give that to you. You're forgiven." Bellamy says as his voice is on the verge of breaking. He feels like there is a giant weight pushing down on his chest as Clarke looks at him, trying to leave him. Trying to leave everyone, after all they just went through.

"I can't go in there, Bellamy. It's too hard—,"

"Clarke that's bullshit! I'm sorry but it just is!" He cuts her off.

Clarke takes a deep breath. Fighting. This she can do. She's used to fighting with Bellamy. It's something that she's fairly good at. It's easier to do this, than to face the feelings she knows have been lingering deep down since they had that heart to heart back on their day trip. That day just seems so long ago now.

Fighting is easy. It's easier than admitting to what she knows Lexa helped her realize when they were speaking to each other.

"You care about him."

"I care about all of them."

"Yet you worry about him more."

She didn't want to admit it to herself, but she knows it's true. She has always cared about Bellamy more. Always worried more. Always knew who he was even when others didn't see it.

Allowing herself to feel these things is not easy. It's something she can't allow herself to do, because if what happened in the mountain is any indication to what Clarke is capable of; what happens around her, then she doesn't know what is. If she lets herself open up to this very difficult feeling, she will just drag him down with her. Take what's left of this strong man, a man who has spent his whole life caring for others, and ruin him too.

She doesn't want to ruin the last beautiful thing on earth.

"I can't go in. I can't let them see me trying to come to terms with what I did—,"

"What we did. You don't have to face this alone, Clarke. You weren't the only one who pulled that lever—"

"You only did it for me Bellamy! And that's the problem!" She snaps, and starts to turn around and walk away.

She desperately hopes that he won't follow her. That will make this so much easier. But Clarke's life is far from easy.

He follows her. He follows her silently for a few feet, until the end up in the middle of the woods. They know that with everything that just went down today they're safe. The grounders aren't going to try and start any other wars today. Today was a battle won, not a battle begun.

Clarke is just starting to get used to the silence when Bellamy finally says something, no louder than a mere whisper.

"Why is doing things for you a problem?"

This question makes her stop dead in her tracks. How does he not see that being near her is going to destroy him? She's trying to leave just as much for him as she is for herself.

"Bellamy—,"

"No, Clarke. Why? Why can't you just accept that you aren't alone in this? Why can't you see that I did what I had to do to protect my people? You do realize that my people include you, right? I helped you pull that lever, because you are my people."