See ya!(Kuroken)

Le levé du soleil à tes lèvres

Pretty heart, sexy brain and my favorite is you

Kuro..what a good little boy. I can't seem to be able to avoid him, not that I would want to. It's just a way of saying how much it's difficult not to miss him anymore? I used to feel indifferent about his presence, either way I got to have fun right?
I've gotten too used to looking into his eyes that my screen seems nearly as nice as his shiny dark brown orbs.
Thinking of him before taking a nap is a habit I now have. Sue him.

"Kenma what are you thinking about?" Kuro asked me looking into my eyes as if searching for an answer in them. Does he usually get one when doing that? He doesn't do stuff knowing that it won't work. Unless he really wants to anyway.

"I'm thinking about.." what should I say? I'm caught off guard, too lazy to make up a good lie. It's not like I care. "Thinking about you"

"Oh really..?" He said a little of confusion showing on his face. Is disappointment there? Why?
"You were frowning while staring outside, is there something bothering you?"

"Do you really expect an answer from me?" I replied sounding like I was mocking him. Was I? I have no idea.

"I'm concerned you look like that in thoughts. Anyway I hope you'll tell me what about me is bothering you soon" Did I make him mad? My eyes widened a little bit I didn't know what to answer.

"It's not that..you misunderstood me." I mumbled taken aback, losing focus on what was said, I took a real look at his face. Dark bags were starting to create underneath his always so lively eyes, his skin was lightly paler than usual. Since when was he like that?
Kuro sighed taking me back to our conversation.

"I'm sorry Kenma..I don't know what got into me" The guy in front of me lowered his gaze, breaking our eye contact. My heart started to beat faster, I hate this feeling, he doesn't deserve my worry. Still, my heart found a move to make before my head could. I was now embracing him in between my arms. That's right, he needs emotional support. I'm not good with words.

"No need to apologize, don't worry" I heard myself say. Am I not being too cuddly acting like this? These past few weeks we've been the closest I've ever allowed him to.
I got away from his warmth before glancing up at his now slightly red face. At least I still have some effect on him. Right? He won't leave me for being like this. For being Kenma. Should I change a little to make sure? Ew no.
Like that, I went back to work-well it's not like that's what I was doing previously but now I am-. We're in class and have some tasks to do.

"Something happened between you two?" I heard Bokuto ask Kuro from afar. I felt my heart pumping in my chest and I glanced somewhere else. I don't want to hear what they have to say. It shouldn't even bother me.

After school, I was waiting outside for Kuro to come so we can walk home like we usually do.
Wait, am I really doing this? It's like I'm being dependent of him. I'm not. Has it really been like this for years? Why's it now that I become aware of it? Probably because I didn't give it too much thought. I keep on sticking around with him. He's also the only one who would let me do that. Though I just do it so I don't bring too much attention to myself for being all alone. People pity me without giving it a second thought, don't they know some people enjoy being alone? They're so stupid I dislike them. It's not like I need that guy anyway, I'm not even grateful to him, he's annoying.
My eyes landed on him, walking down the school's stairs looking all so beautiful and happy. He was talking to Bokuto, his smile being wide enough for me to see his teeth. I looked in amazement before shaking my head once he turned his head around looking for something. I sighed thinking how I don't deserve hanging out with him. I'm the shitty one, the useless one. I feel good around him though, so is it a problem? Is it wrong that I feel so comfortable with someone else than myself? Even though I don't always feel so okay with my own self? I don't know what is it, my head says to run away from it, my heart says I shall prepare for what's coming.
I like to listen to my heart though, I still tend to listen to my head. Logical stuff makes me feel safer.
I was so lost in thought I didn't notice him being already here, in front of me. He stood there with a teasing smile before I felt a hand pull a strand of hair behind my ear. I hadn't acknowledged the warmth creeping on my face as I looked back at his eyes. What was that? What did he just do? It made me all flustered but warm inside. He can't be making me feel that way.

"You really are in your head these days aren't you? Coming back to those habits I see. I hope you enjoyed the view from afar, seeing the blush on your cheeks-"

"Ah shut up" I averted my eyes from him as we walked alongside on the sidewalk to get home.
Kuro suddenly stopped walking, reaching for my hand to hold it.

"Hey kitten, I just can tell you're having a lot of disturbing thoughts going on right now.. please don't make yourself regret things out of impulse?" My eyes widened, how did he even...
My heart was now doing backflips inside, I gulped and didn't say anything back, just a slight nod.
With that, we kept on walking, I got closer to him, our fingers still intertwined together, him putting his arm around my shoulders. I felt safe and cared about. Not alone.

Thank you Kuro.. but I hate you.

Stop making me feel that way.

10:14pm