Stuck in Daydream~

My ray of sunlight IV

T: *laugh* no eva thanks for cheering me up lol but he didn't cheat on me...

Eva: then what happened?

T: he... he...

I cried even harder i could cry a whole ocean!

Eva: what?!

T: he got shot and died!

She looked so shocked and she hugged me so hard, she felt sympathy... which is actually what i needed... someone there to comfort me now that hes gone and heartbroken. Something so dear to me... just vanished... i didn't even get to see him in the hospital... they never told me... i just got a call from his friend that he already died... and was found dead... what kind of girlfriend am i?! I thought.

T: what am i gonna do? I am so bad! I wasn't there for him... all those memories just passed! What kind of girlfriend am i?! Wae?!

I cried from the bottom of my lungs until i almost fell like passing out. Eva took me to the bench and we sat down. She was patting my back and called crystal, mel, & micky to come to the park around our house. She told them i am crying and was in desperate position for attention. It was serious! When they heard me crying they came almost as fast as lightning, well we do live not so far from each other.  The 3 of them came in the same train hmp made me a bit suspicious... maybe they were hanging out without me hmph. They ran over and started comforting me.

Micky: are you ok? Why are you crying?

T: kimJ... he...

Crystal: Did that bastard cheat on you?! Did he hurt you?! Where is he?! Ill kill him!

Eva: Right! Omg i had the same reaction!

I samtarted laughing and it was kinda hard to cry... but then again when i think of him, or even mention him i start to cry again.

T: KimJ... died.

Crystal, micky & mel were shocked and sat with me on the bench and started hugging me.

Crystal: oh im so sorry... maybe not but i am...

Mel: im so sorry... im sorry for your loss. How did this happen?

T: he ... got shot.

Micky: oh my... thats so sad. I wouldn't want to imagine my kris being shot like that.

Crystal: OMG you and your kris! Hell never die! Dude taeyang needs to feel better!

Micky: ugh looks who's talking! You and your XUIMIN or your haru from free!

Crystal: bruh! *snap* no hes different~ pshhh

While micky and crystal were arguing about their imaginary boyfriends, the rest of us started to laugh... i have even forgotten about the whole situation.

Few hours junhos mom called me and asked if i would want to see him in his funeral tomorrow... i agreed i mean i dont want to seem rude nor miss my lovers funeral... 

Day at funeral...

I look at his picture... i brought flowers for him. I stare and look at everyone else crying and looking so depressed... junhos mom and my mom started to talk and walked away... my friends came also. I told them to leave me alone with junho for few minutes. I cried... "id rather be crying for our brake up rather than your death" "why? Why did you leave like this?!" "Could've broken up! Why this?! ... you... you jerk" i was being selfish if it wasn't me he would've still been here. We never even got time to sincerely say "i love you" in person...

T: i... i love you~...

To be continued...

Yes that happened yea yada yada ok im really forgetting wat to say and being way to distracted. My phone is about to die... so yea... and also sorry for the short story...~ yea