It All Starts In Summer

CHAPTER 15

Chapter 15
Rope of love

When I was just seven my parents often told about how they met and fell in love with  one another. I was so happy hearing their love story, I remembered that I was always throwing questions to mom about her story but she was just cut me off saying that I should just listen until the story ends.

And me as a good girl follows her order, I would stay quiet and wait for the story to end. But I was just able to finish the story was when I was thirteen, because when I was a kid I always fell asleep. Turns out that the story was my bed time story.

And when I turned teen that's when I started to imagine myself retelling a similar story of mine to my kids, but then circumstances came and my imagination stop itself. And my mind starting to build up a definite wall saying that not every man was just like my dad in mom's story.

Not every man would kneel to be forgiven by his woman. Not every man would stay faithful and contented by their woman. And not every man would feel love for you  the firstpitime you've met.

That's what I've learned when I was with Zarus, I thought we could last longer and I really thought that he could be the one. But I was wrong. They said that if it's not painful it wasn't love, if its not crucial it is not love.

But for me a relationship was just like a rope and the middle of it was the love and it was weak and each side was the both of you, you need to be strong and hold on to stay intact but when one of you or both you gets weaker and tired then the rope wil be cut off meaning there's no longer love that will bind you.

Kaya ganun na lang ang takot kong sumubok ulit na pagbigyan ang sarili ko, in terms of that matter. I experienced that and it was not good though you would feel good in good times you'll be broken if the time comes and you will realized that you've made a good but at the same time wrong decision.

Hindi ko na nagugustuhan ang mga nangyayari sa akin sa tuwing malapit ako sa kaniya. I'm not dumb I know what's the meaning of this feeling, and it's frightening knowing that I can risk again and bet for my heart again, with the question would it be worthwhile?.

I heave a deep sigh and reach for my phone. It's been what? Almost two days, I guess. I told him to wait for my answer about his offer, but until now I was still confused not just because of what he said but how my heart reacted after hearing those words. It looks like it'll explode by rapidly beating.

I should tell him my answer... And my answer is a yes! Gusto kong pumayag para na rin sa rason niya at sa sarili kong rason. I need to clarify what is really this reactions all about.

To GHEROME:

I know it's too late but I just want to tell you my decision and it's a deal..

I pressed sent and waited for his reply...but seconds to minutes and minutes to hours there's no reply coming from him.

Siguro galit siya dahil late na ko nag-desisyon...or naisip niya na mali pala na nag offer siya ng ganun. I heave a deep sigh and stood up from my bed, I left my phone inside the room before going out.

I was walking off the stairs when I saw the maids rushing outside the mansion. Hinarang ko ang isa at tinanong.

"Ano pong nangyayari bakit parang nagmamadali po kayo?"

"Kasi po ma'am yung mga kabayo po makawala sa rancho at ngayon po ay nasa harapan ng mansiyon nangangain ng mga halaman." my eyes widened and turned it's gaze outside.

At doon nakita ko ang mga kabayo sa harapan. Kaya nagmadali ako at tumakbo palabas. Halos limang kabayo rin ang narito sa bukana ng mansiyon, hindi ito malapitan ng mga katulong at ibang tauhan dahil nagwawala ang mga ito kung nalalapitan.