Rotten Apple (completed) 18+

Part 21

**Gulf's POV**

A week has passed since I found out about everything and sadly Kaownah is still in a coma...

Right after Kaownahs accident, Mew had showed up at my condo the next morning and begged me to talk to him. I had closed the door in his face but he stayed outside my door all night and refused to move. He even followed me to school and on the way home too. I had thrown a bag of his crap out of the house so he would leave me alone but even then he didn't move from my door. 

He was like that all week, trying to get me to talk to him but I just don't have the strength to.

I'm so tired of pain and being hurt...

So yesterday while he was in class, I left my class early and went home. I packed a few bags, got on a bus and left to go visit my parents for a while or at least until Kaownah wakes up. I couldn't deal with seeing Mew's face anymore. It made me yearn for him but also made me want to slap him. 

My emotions are all over the place right now.

I love him but im just not ready to forgive him yet.

It helps a little bit knowing that he wasn't actually the one that killed Mild and that he didn't even want to do it to begin with. Except even with all of those facts, I still couldn't help but think about how if they hadnt done that, Mild would be here right now...

How am I supposed to forgive him for that?

I want to but I just don't know if I can...

Currently I'm sitting at my parents kitchen table watching the news when my mom comes home and sits across from me.

Mom: Resting her hand on mine. "Honey, are you sure you're okay? You've never come home during the week before, it's a little unusual for you to miss so much school."

Gulf: I give her the best smile I can muster at the moment and look down at our hands. "I think I'm okay, just a little frustrated and sad but okay... Kaownah is still in the hospital so I'm worried about him but I have a gut feeling that he's going to be okay. Other than that, there's also..." I give her a sideways glance feeling a little nervous about coming out to my mom in this way... "There's also a few issues in my love life recently..."

Mom: That makes her perk up and she starts to smile. "Love life? So you finally got yourself a nice and pretty girl instead of drowning in school like usual? I'm happy for you. What's the problem? Maybe I can help."

Okay Gulf, you can do this!

Just have to tell her and hope that she will except it...

Gulf: "Yes, he is very handsome, pretty cute at times too. He is also really nice, thoughtful and loves me very much but recently I found out that he did something that is really wrong and it's made me look at him differently and I don't know if I should forgive him or not."

She stares at me in shock and stays silent for a while. After some time passed, she takes a deep breath and looks up at me with a half-smile.

Mom: "He? Your dating a man? I thought you liked girls?"

Gulf: I laugh for the first time all week and look up at my mom. "I have never actually said that I like girls. I've liked boys since I could remember. It's just that recently I had a chance to actually be with one and I really love him mom... I don't know what to do."

Mom: "Your positive you like him... In... In that way? Like romantically? It's not just an appearance attraction thing?"

Gulf: I grin down at our hands and try not to laugh again. "Mom, I'm positive. He's um... Very good in bed..."

Her face automatically shows surprise once what I said processed and I couldn't help but laugh.

She's the best...

Mom: "Okay... Probably a little more then I needed to know but I'm glad that you were able to know that you are actually um attracted to guys before going public with the information..." Her cheeks start to turn red. "So what is the problem that you are having trouble with?"

Gulf: Feeling nervous again. "I don't know if I can tell you what actually happened but I can tell you the outline of it. Basically last week I found out he did something that was really bad and it made me want to punch him. After I found out everything, all he's been doing is following me and trying to make up. He looks like a sad lost puppy."

Mom: "Can I ask you something?"

Gulf: "Of course."

Mom: "Do you think he did this bad thing on purpose to hurt someone or does he regret what he did?"

I had to think about it but after I really thought about everything he told me and about how he had to choose between a stranger and his best friend. I automatically knew that he didn't actually want to hurt anyone and that its probably haunted him every day since...

Gulf: "From what I've heard, he was kind of black mailed into doing it and he didn't even do the bad thing. He was more of an accomplice..."

Mom: "...I think you should give him another chance. It sounds like he really cares about you. He doesn't seem like a bad guy."

Gulf: "But..."

Mom: "I know. I know. He helped someone do something really bad but he didn't do it because he wanted to and that's what seems the most important to me."

Gulf: "Yea..."

Mom: "Honey, if you didn't already want to forgive him deep down then you would have never brought this up to begin with. So what is really holding you back?"

That's true...

She always knows what I'm thinking...

Gulf: "What he did affected two of my friends and I don't want them to hate me for forgiving him..."

Mom: "Do you love this boy?"

Gulf: "Yes..."

Mom: "Then try and make your friends understand your reasoning. They might surprise you."

Gulf: "Are you sure?"

Mom: "You will never know unless you try."

I nod my head and then rest it on the table in frustration.

I guess I will forgive him than, I'll just wait a few days before I go back home and then see if Mew and I can work this out...

Gulf: "Okay... I'll try to work things out. If I'm being honest, I really don't want to lose him..."

Mom: She stands up and walks over to me. Bends down and kisses the top of my head. "I'm proud of you..." Points to Allie in the corner. (Our 3 year old poodle.) "Can you take her out, I haven't had a chance to yet today and I really want to get started on dinner before your dad gets home from work."

Gulf: I stand up and walk over to Allie. "Yea I can do that, I haven't been home for so long, I should spend some time with her, maybe I'll take her to the dog park before dinner. What time is dad supposed to come home?"

Mom: Washing vegetables. "Oh, that sounds like a good idea. Dad will be home in about an hour. Go have fun!"

Gulf: "Okay, I will be back in about 45 min."

I put the leash on Allie and then walk over to the door about to leave but as soon as I opened the door I stop.

Mew was standing on the other side of the door with his arm raised like he was going to knock.

Taking a step back from the door.

What the fuck?...

Gulf: "W-what are you doing h-here?"

Mew: He takes a deep breath and then shoves his hands in his pocket. "I just want to talk Gulf... Please..."