Rotten Apple (completed) 18+

Bonus Part

**Kaownah's POV**

At first I tried to look after everyone to make sure they were okay. There was a time that I was worried most about Off but for the past 8 years the only one I truly worry about is Perth. At first I would just yell at him even though he couldn't see or hear me... 

As the years went by he seemed to be getting better and my anger slowly turned to sadness and longing. At this point all I want for him is to be happy. I was willing to let him go as soon as I knew that he was going to be okay. About two years ago I had gotten my hopes up when he finally realized he had feelings for that Tong guy until he came home crying and shaking talking out loud about how much he was sorry.

He doesn't need to be sorry, I just want him to be loved again.

Being so close to him yet so far at the same time really changed my perspective on everything...

After I found out about Tong, I kind of followed him around for a few months and learned that Tong really did care about Perth. He could see that he wasn't okay and fell for him after watching him work. I guess he found Perth's work ethic of being a workaholic attractive and he thought Perth was a really good person too...

Seeing someone else love him hurts my heart but I have come to terms that I really needed to let him go so that he could move on. I think he can feel my presence and that's probably what's making him stay attached to me...

I just wanted to make sure he would be left in good hands and I think Tong is good for him.

Im ready to let him go...

As I'm sitting on the couch bored out of my mind just like I am every single day, Perth walks into his home looking happy but really exhausted.

Oh Perth... Did you over work yourself today too?

I wait for him to finish his dinner routine and sit-down before I go over and hop up onto the table and watch him as he stares at our picture. 

I really like that picture...

Perth: *sigh* "Hey, Kaownah. It's me again..."

Kaownah: I start to laugh even though I know he can't hear me. "Welcome home Perth..."

Perth: "Today was a better day then most. Work was really busy which was nice. I had this one operation about a patient who was shot and we didn't know if we were going to be able to save him but at the last minute his vitals became normal and I was really relived..."

Kaownah: "I don't understand how you can look at all of those gruesome wounds on a daily bases. I don't know if I'd have the stomach for it... It's a good thing I wanted to be a doctor not an ER doctor. Those seem to see a lot more brutal things than most. It's a good thing you have a strong stomach. I'm glad it went well. You always look happy after a successful operation."

Perth: "Oh and Mew called me a few hours ago, and guess what? Mew and Gulf are going to be parents soon. How about that? I'm really happy for them..."

Kaownah: "What!! They're going to be parents?!?! I can't believe it but I'm really glad they're able to have a family. They really deserve it!"

At that he glances at our picture again and starts to look sad.

Perth: "I wish we could have started a family but I know it's not healthy to think like that so I try not too..."

Kaownah: "Oh Perth... I know that you wanted a future between us but the sad truth is that I'm not coming back... I still want you to have a family and grow old with someone so please don't think like that so much..."

Perth: " Anyways, I had to hang up early because Tong needed help with a last minute emergency operation. I think I've mentioned Tong to you before, he's kind of my best friend at this point. I tried to be more with him but I just couldn't do it..."

He really does love to change the subject a lot...

Kaownah: "I know Perth, I think he's good for you though. I hope you can eventually give him an actual chance someday."

Perth: "Back to the operation, We were able to save another person and right on time for dinner. I didn't want to be late..."

You know this whole one way conversation thing really sucks sometimes. 

Usually I just want to grab him and smack some sense into him but I can't, my arms go right through him...

It looks like he's about to cry as he looks down into his bowl.

Perth: " You know, I really miss you Kaownah, I don't know if I'll ever be able to love anyone more than you. I know that I should probably move on by now but I just don't know how..."

I groan out of frustration because I feel the same way but I can't afford to love him any longer, If I do I'll be stuck here forever and he'll never be able to move on...

He starts to yawn and then stands up and puts his food into the fridge and heads toward the bedroom. I follow him silently as he gets into bed and starts to doze off.

Perth: He smiles before drifting to sleep. "Good night Kaownah."

That's when I made up my mind and crawl over to the bed and lay down next to him as I try to rest my hand over his but my fingers just sink through instead.

Kaownah: I can feel tears falling down my face as I whisper. "I love you Perth but now it's time for me to leave. I'm going to let you go and I think that will allow you let go too... I really hope you can truly be happy again. I'm going to miss you so much but it's my time to give you back your freedom."

With that I can feel my body being lighter than usual and sections start to disappear. 

I wasn't afraid and it didn't hurt.

I just felt at peace for the first time in a long time.

Kaownah: "Goodbye Perth..."

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Hello my little sprinkles!! All I can say is don't be sad, their is actually a Sequel to "Rotten Apple", it is called "Conflicted Hearts". You can find it on my page if you would like to continue reading about their journey. Please Enjoy.  :)

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On another note, I just completed another Mew/Gulf fanfiction called "Abused and Forgotten". It is a story about a lonely prince (Gulf) and an emotionless gang leader (Mew). You can go and check it out on my page if you would like to. 

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A smile a day will keep the darkness away.     :)