SHATTERED

7| ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ ᴡᴀꜱ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴇꜱꜱ

So we graduated. It was a wonderful ceremony if my memory serves right.

It was the only time I enjoyed myself to the fullest. We had danced, watched movies and we even went to a nearby cliff where we jumped into the water with all our clothes on, evidently getting everything ruined.

All my make-up was ruined but we laughed it off. It was just us having lots of fun.

After Joanna left, I felt like I lost a piece of myself. Even though Joanna did not know about my secret dangerous life, she was my first friend who loved me as much as I loved her.

But she moved onto the next chapter of her life, and so did I.

Logan and I both signed up for the British army, and even though Logan didn't want to be a part of the army, he still needed the training in order to become an agent.

It was during our second year in the army, when we had just turned nineteen, that Logan and I had the most important talk of our lives.

***

I held Logan's hand as we laid on the grass, staring at the clouds. After a day of vigorous training, we were both tired.

I hadn't trained like this in quite a while. Sure, I still trained everyday to keep up my physic and just in case anyone found me. This type of training as in working so hard that your legs felt like ripping apart.

Logan gripped my hand tighter. I turned my head to him and smiled.

"Everything okay?" I asked, moving closer to him so my head was leaning against his shoulder.

"Yeah, just..." he sighed. "We're nineteen years old, we're in the British army, then we might get recruited in an agency or we might be working for the police, who knows? But, what's after all that?"

I raised my brow at his question. "Logan, that's years away, maybe even a decade away. Why are you thinking of it now?" I chuckled. Seriously, he thought way too much.

He turned his head to me and looked me in the eyes seriously. I stopped laughing and stared into his forest green eyes. He slowly brought our hands in front of our eyes and played with my fingers.

"Yeah, but don't you ever think about where this," he pointed to me then to him, "is going? I mean, don't you want a future with me?" He asked sweetly.

I rolled my eyes at him, him growing even more confused. "Logan March, you are the only person I love as of now, and literally the only person that matters to me." I gripped his hand and wore a warm smile. "I intend to spend every moment of the future with you."

I closed my eyes and brought myself even closer as he put his arm around my shoulders, his head snuggling into the crook of my neck.

I ran my fingers through his soft dark hair and kissed his head. 

"Logan, I want you to know something. Even though I don't think about the future that much, I know that I want you in it, because you are the only person in my life who knows about the real me. The dangerous me, the soft me and every me there is." I held him tighter and breathed in his scent. "No matter what, I'm not going to leave you, and I hope you don't leave me either."

He pulled away from and smiled, kissing my cheek. "Yeah, I know. I love you."

"I love you too."

***

We had our whole future planned out. Everything we wanted or could have.

Every holidays, and breaks, we would go visit Logan's family. His family liked me enough and his little sister always had a soft spot for me.