Toxic paradise

Chapter 5

When we arrived at jay's house, I was afraid to speak. I simply went to the bathroom to clean up some of the blood on my face and changed into one of jay's t shirts.

As I looked at myself in the mirror pain was written all over my face. Jay wasn't always like this. When I first met him, he was a sweetheart. He promised again and again he would never lay hands on me. Disrupting my thoughts, he came into the bathroom and hugged me from behind. I sighed and look down. "Im sorry baby", he said.

"You're always sorry, jay. What have you become?", I said

"I don't know, Cece."

"Well I do. you're a monster! Look at me jakeel!", I yelled. "Why do you act like this?"

Jakeel took his shirt off and called me over to sit next to him on the couch. "Look, im jealous. I'm a very jealous dude, cece. I've told you that before. I will kill a nigga over you. I love you that much, girl."

"If you love me, this is how you show it? By anger? Rage towards me? You're hurting me Jay."

"I know. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry baby", he said kissing me softly. I allowed it and gave him a kiss back. Climbing on top of me, he marinated me in soft kisses down my neck. Slipping his free hand underneath my dress and holding my head with the other. i cupped his soft baby face with my hand and made my way down to his pants, grabbing his manhood causing him to moan...

Waking up the next morning, i awakened to an empty bed. I rolled over and thought about the night before. One thing that I liked was how Jay and I make love. He rocks my world and now I was missing him. I was ready for a round 2 any day. I looked at the clock. Gosh, he's always going places. "Morning lil shorty", he said kissing me on my forehead. "Morning babe. Where are you going?", I asked. "I gotta go meet the homie reg. we got business to handle", he said putting a fresh new shirt on. "When are you coming home?"

"I don't know baby. can't make any promises now." I sighed. Typical Jay. I got out of bed and said, "I'm going to nicki's house."

"Alright. You better be home by the time I get here", he ordered.

"I don't live here Jay."

"I don't care. You better be at your house or my house. One of the two", he said kissing me and left. I don't get why the night before, we make love, and it's like that didn't even happen or matter to him. I'm tired of Jay and his bull...

Arriving at Nicole 's house, she answered the door for me. "Heyy.where you been?",She said.

"Alot of places. Girl, it was a long night." Nicole started smiling all hard. Little did she know, it was not with Ashton. "The movies was great. After that, he brought me over to his house and he tried to come onto me. Talking about he want me to be his girl but yet he knows I got a boyfriend already so I left. I passed by your house and you wasn't home so I was gonna wait for a bus to take me to Michael's house but it took forever. Mind you, Jay called me many times and I ignored the call. So I saw Jay 's car and he was really angry. He asked me where I was and I never answered so he smacked me and started beating me up. Long story short, I ran into Ashton. He had a gun and I didn't want anything to go down so I just went home with Jay", I explained. "Dang girl. I can tell Jay almost killed you. These new bruises tell it all. What happened after that?"

I signed. "He kept apologizing and one thing led to another...we had sex",I said. Nicole shook her head in disappointment. "Girl, I don't care how good he is in the bed, you need to let him go or leave. Do something."

"Y'all don't understand",I said. "Oh I understand." "No nicki. You don't. It's not that easy to leave a guy like jakeel. You've never been in my situation so don't sit here as and act like you know cause you don't."

"I know cece but hear me out. Only reason why I'm telling you this is cause I care about you. You my girl and i hate to see you going through this", she said. She was right. I needed to leave but I didn't know how to... without death being the end of me.

"Aye Dee. You play too much man", Ashton said opening the front door. "Hold up. So does Ashton have keys to your house or something?", I asked laughing. "Girl no. I told you he's literally always with my brothers. It's hella annoying though", she said. "Hey ladies", Ashton said greeting us with a hug. "Hey, ima need y'all to meet up somewhere else other than my house." "She sayin that like she paying rent",he said in no one in particular." You know I only come by when I hear ya moms cook",he said. " Yeah well ima tell her not to cook anymore. Ain't nobody tryna see your face around here every day", nicki said. Ashton laughed. "I know my girl does", he said flashing his pearly whites my way. I simply smiled. "See, she not even gonna deny it", he said. "Hey, I ain't got nothing to do with this",I said getting up to leave. "Hey, can I talk to you for a min?", Ashton asked grabbing hold of my hand. "Okay. Nicki, I'll hit you up later." Ashton walked me outside to his car. "So wasup?", he asked. He really just wanted to tell me wasup? Really? "I don't know. You tell me", I said crossing my arms. "I'm talking about six flags Bae. I ain't heard no word about it from you cause we going tomorrow",he explained. I knew the deadline was tomorrow but. Unfortunately, I couldn't go. I didn't want Ashton to get into any confrontations from Jay, and I certainly didn't want him to find out about Jay putting his hands on me. "Nah. I can't go", I told him. "Why not?"

" I just can't go. You can have fun without me. There's plenty of females you can definitely turn up with",I told him.

"Listen, I used to have my fair share of women before, but that was the old me. I'm tryna be down with one chick and that's you",he said stepping close to me. I stopped him with my hand and said," I'm not no 'chick'."

"You right. You my lady."

I laughed. This nigga. "I gotta go", I said and walked to the nearest bus stop.