Loved By None

CHAPTER-10 THE GODDAMN TRUTH

"What is it that your hiding from the rest of us?"He caught me off guard breaking me from my thoughts."Tell me the truth about Blake's death.I deserve to know."My newly found spirits sank.Should I or not?"That's why you were being kind to me weren't you.For your own selfish reasons."I spoke up as the truth dawned on me.Why else would he talk to me?He wanted to know the truth and that's all.He wanted to use me for information and I fell for the act like a little,lost puppy. I thought Chris was the oscar winning actor but Tyler topped even him by potraying hurt with such magnitude."What an asshole you are and here I was thinking atleast you were real but your just as fake as Chris."I commented with atmost disgust as to how low he stooped.Well if anything I learned that day it was that you shouldn't trust tears and also not insult anyone who is twice your size out loud.because it was stike one.He glared at me like no one ever did before."I never acted.I truly am sorry."He replied struggling to keep his voice calm."Yeah right,save it jackass."strike two."Insult me one more time and you will regret it."He was glowering with fury."I don't think there is anything else I'll regret about."strike threeHis eyes pierced into mine and I felt as if though he could stare into the depths of my soul.If I could become invisible at will it would be great.But sadly we all aren't blessed with superpowers rather cursed with our own inabilities of being mortal."Everything I said today was genuine.I am sincerely sorry but I want to know how Blake really died.I deserve to know.The day he died my love also left this world to be his for all eternity.Please I beg you."He started quivering with tears."I'm really sorry for hurting you so badly.I know sorry is a small word to compensate what Chris,Jake and I have done to you. But you have to trust me here.I want to know the truth.The truth that she died with and I promise I won't tell Chris about it.Just tell me the truth I beg of you."I could see the heart break all over his face.He was clearly miserable.I know how it is to be sad through out life I don't want anyone else to go through that because it can ruin the essence of who you are and make you a monster.Like how he was becoming one.I know what I'm about to do."Not here.Wait for five minutes,after my shift is over I'll take you to a place."I instructed him.He listened to every word I uttered with great intent and I could see the gratefulness in his eyes. I stood up and finished my shift by cleaning the tables.I bid my fare well to caleb and gave him a reassuring smile as his face was laced with concern."Yo princess you coming or not?"I asked Tyler as I was leaving. He caught up to me with his long strides."Your car or mine?"I asked the gentle man."I didn't get mine."I looked at him with a confused look."I ran."He answered simply.Oh yeah he was a jock that explains it.I hate it when people have more stamina than me.See physics is never there when you need it."Hope in princess."I said.He gave me a questioning look."I'm not letting you drive my baby."I replied sternly.I'm a great driver ok. Maybe not great but good. Fine I'm moderately ok at driving.It's hard for some people ok."Why did I have a deathwish today?"He said reading my expression."Just get in drama queen."I replied."Wear your seatbelt."I half screamed before starting the engine."Ok chill."He replied and put on the seatbelt.Only people who lost their loved ones in an accident understand how important it is to wear the seatbelt."Where are we going anyway?"He asked with curiosity dripping from his tone."To the depths of the known universe."I replied with a smile.He half did. I saw it."How very funny."He said. "I know." I replied.After a 2 hour drive he fell asleep.Must have been really tired well don't mind the fact that I recieved not one not two but three warnings,was starving and was exauhsted to which he can be credited for."Rise and shine princess."I said as the engine died."Where are we?"He asked rubbing his eyes."Look ahead." I said. CITY BURIAL GROUNDS.geez A great name for a last stop don't you think.No effort at all."Your gonna kill me?"He asked jokingly."No.I'm just gonna bury you alive."I replied.He smiled. Well atleast one last smile for the day eh?"You ready to know the truth?"I asked Tyler looking him in the eye.He shook his head as his brown eyes shone with sincerity.We got of and went into the grave yard.I still remember where it was.HERE LIES A GREAT SON,A KIND SPIRIT AND THE BEST FRIEND ANYONE COULD EVER DREAM OF.....BLAKE BENJAMIN BECKETT. He truly was an angel.I mean it. He didn't deserve to die.I felt a large hand on my shoulder.I turned to look at big brown eyes concern and curiosity along with misery behind them.I thought if he had to know the truth then better do it here."It's a long story so better buckle up princess."I said as he nodded his head and looked at me with rapt attention."When I was 15 I moved to ridgewood and met Blake.He was kind,helpul and a tue gentleman.He helped through my first day.Over a period of time we became best friends.My dad loved it when Blake came over and ..."He gave me a questioning look."My mom died in a car crash when I was 8.If only she wore the god damn seat belt.""oh"he replied as his features filled with guilt."It's ok."I reassured."He was a warm light in my life.He used to cook the best meals.We would spend our time fighting and throwing sarcastic comments at one another.Those were the best days of my life.Being with him was like being with my mom,fun carefree and happy.He meant a lot to me."He gave another questioning glance."I didn't like him that way.I was completely unaware of his feelings for me until that day.I thought he loved me as a friend."His feature showed empathy.He was in the same position."When I thought things were really good that's when the universe decided to show me how bad misery can be.Blake's dad was a politician.He was a congressman.He isn't anymore.Not after his son's death anyway. It was a really hard time as there were a lot of internal conflicts in his party.And Blake had an arugument with his father.He came to stay at my place like he always did when he fought with his dad.Even his mom wasn't alive.We decided to go to a local diner to have dinner."I paused as my throat dried up and tears had formed at the back of my eyes."When we had parked the car and gotten out to walk to the entrance........all I remember is absolute darkness after a hit on the head......We were kidnapped.....I didn't know how many days had passed and nor could he.We ...... um.....were tied to opposite sides of a dark room.....There was a pool of blood....his blood and mine as well......The man came i-i-in..."I hated this part of my life.It was so terrifying.Tyler responded by hugging me."You don't have to." he said but I knew he wanted to know so I continued as even I wanted freedom from this trumatic incident that ruined me."The man was about to hit me.....That's when Blake screamed that if the guy were a man, he should deal with another guy and hitting a girl wouldn't pro-o-o-ve his strength."Tyler's hug tightened."The man beat me up any way and starting to get really close.....a point to were it was a crime."He started rubbing my back to comfort me but my heart and mind were stuck in that moment.I felt void as my throat closed up on me."My innocence came at the cost of his life."It just came out.I spit it out finally.Something I was hiding for 2 years.Finally out.At this point Tyler was givig me a full on bear hug.We stood there two specks of dust in the known universe as time flew past us.It was really late as it was one o'clock in the morning we couldn't travel back that would just be crazy.We could get into an accident if our eyes started to get tired."I know where we can go for a while."I said to him as we couldn't afford any hotel because he had only 20 dollars while I, The great Emily Richardson forgot my wallet at home.In my defense I didn't know I'd be travelling today.I drove to the center of the city towards one of the most costliest and well maintained mansions of the city.Towards the man who had everything and nothing."Hey Billy open her up."I said as I drove into the drive way.To say that Tyler was shocked would be an understatement."Az you say madame."Billy responded in a french accent.I just called him billy because his real name was hard to pronounce and remember.We hopped out of the car and I went towards the main door with Tyler just at my heel."Where..."He started."Just shut up.You'll know soon ." I replied.Before I could ring the door bell,the door opened itself to reveal a tall man with crystal blue eyes and auburn hair."Hi Peter."I said."Come on in."He replied to me.He visibly held his breath when he saw Tyler."He's Tyler....The reason I'm here."I replied to his questioning look.Yeah Tyler looked alot like Blake.....except fot the eye color.Tyler entered after I gave him a reassuring nod."I don't kill."Peter replied."I didn't mean it that way sir."He said."The name's Peter."He said slyly.Peter James Beckett was Blake's father.After Blake died....God it's still painful....After he died Peter quit politics and spent his time thinking ,greiving about Blake's death."Still on alcohol Peter?"I called from behind him as we were heading towards the hall."Yup,whipping another bloody mary,Want one?"he questioned."I'm sixteen."I replied."Not you Em,I was asking the fellow gentleman."He responded as we entered the hall."Seriously Peter could you please stop drowning yourself in alcohol.He's gone and anything you do won't bring him back.""I know that....But alcohol clears my mind of any miserable thought."He replied."You mean thoughts related to him?""Yup."he emphasised on the p."Sorry You have to see this Tyler."I said."I understand,Anyone would need a good swing of gin to be able to tolerate you."he joked.Peter laughed.After two whole years It was the first time Peter laughed."Good one."Peter said handing Tyler a beer which he gladly accepted."Um....did I miss something?"I asked refering to their instant clicking.How does that even happen?(Author's reply:"Didn't feel like writing two more chapters.Simple")Anyways moving on ,"We're staying the night."I told Peter."And tomorrow?"He asked."Please."He added."You didn't have to say please Peter.""I know but it's just that I never told him please or sorry.""Regret is bitter isn't it?""You should know as well."Peter knew about my PTSD and my hyperventalation since the incident.The worst part was that he blamed himself for everything that happened to Blake and I.He claimed to be the reason of my illness and tried to drown himself in alcohol to forget his guilt,remorse and regret."Stop it Peter."I said as I went closer to him."No."He said.I went closer and snatched the bottle awya from him."It's alright.We'll be okay.It wasn't your fault."I said as I hugged him.He started weeping."I'm-m-m s-so so-o-or-r-ry."He breathed into my shoulder. Guilt what a strange word isn't it?An even starnger and depressing feeling.A man who didn't break when his wife cheated on him with his rival or at her death or at his own mom's funeral broke apart when his son died.He had felt the same feeling I had for 2 years but his was longer.Not able to be a good son or husband didn't break him as much as not being a good father did."He w-w-wanted me t-t-to be t-t-there for him."He said "But I-I-I couldn't d-d-do that for him.""I'm a failure."He said."You aren't Peter." "You still have time and I don't think Blake would be proud seeing you like this."I said ernestly."We all make mistakes Peter.So did I but Tyler made me realize that maybe it wasn't my fault." "It was his choice to stand up in the face of death rather than cower like a cat.He did what he felt right at that time.And you should be proud Peter,Proud that you raised such an amazing human being who didn't think twice before dying to save me.A guy who couldn't let others suffer because of him." "He was a great kid wasn't he?"Peter chuckled slightly."He was the perfect son a father could hope for.A star quarterback, a straight A student and an amazing artist.I should've spent more time with him.""But there's nothing you can do now Peter."Tyler spoke up."He's gone and I know it hurts.It hits hard when a person you loved all you life dies but if I were like you I wouldn't have been able to move on.Time heals everything and it will heal your scars too.We're all broken pieces trying to fix ourselves.I'm sure Blake didn't die thinking you'd be a drunken mess.Where ever he is,I'm sure he wants the best from you.For you to have a new chance at life.The three of us have a second chance and not everyone gets a second chance in life."There was absolute silence as all of us let the words sink in.It's true.They're gone. Whether by choice or force they're gone.Forever.We can't do anything to get them back.Funny isn't it how we humans take the one's who we love for granted and when they leave we sit a dwell in self-pity,grief,remorse and misery.Absolute misery.We become pathetic.This just shows how powerful and uncontrollable love is. It happens and liveson forever even when our memories are gone.It still remains.It is eternal.Something niether death nor time can conquer.It's so powerful.Tyler's love for Katie made him realise the truth and so did my love for Blake.Love never comes with an expiry date but people do.I couldn't hold on or cherish my loved ones in the past but now I will.I know what I need to do."Move in with me Peter.""What?""You heard me."I replied as I started stepping back to see the clear view of his face.It still had tint of misery but realization was shining from his eyes.He finally let go.His inner conflict between his mind that said It wasn't his fault and his heart that blamed him was finally over.His mind won.I could sense it from the change in air around him."My dad is doing what his heart wants because of which as you know he doesn't stay with me and it gets lonely alot.You were always like a father to me Peter.More so than my own.I was and am always welcome to your house.You even bent a few rules for me.You gave me some of your property and tried your best to financially secure my future when you did it for Blake.You never treated us differently.You were the one who would always resolve conflicts between us.You were always there for me.Even on my mother's death anniversary when my own father couldn't make it you did and you consoled me.I would love to have a father like that again.Maybe Blake would have wanted it to."Every word I said about Peter was true. Yeah he was strict as hell but inside he was a big old softy.He had a scary and cold demanour but that was only on the outside.Inside he was a very kind soul,maybe even more so than Blake.He loved me as a daughter I still remember the first time we met.Blake invited me over for dinner at his house and introduced us.He had just gotten of a few calls and looked really tired but still patiently met me and spent sometime with us to watch Inception.He was a bit cold during our first meetings but then later he warmed up to me.We have made an unbreakable bond."So what is your answer Peter,yes or no?"

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