Loved By None

CHAPTER-13 A NEW ME?

"Cupcake I told you I'm taking matters into my hands and it wasn't only you he tormented that kid's got serious issues and he has to be dealt with to give the others a better life.I understand he's in pain but he has to face the consequences of his actions or else he'll feel entitled to do more. What if he doesn't stop?"

"He will.Soon enough he will change for the better."

"I hope so."

After reaching home and eating a quick snack credited to Peter, Tyler and I sat down to do our homework.

"What do you think will happen?"

"I honestly don't know.......I'm going to hang out with the guys at 6, so let's see what happens."I nodded in response to Tyler's reply. I wouldn't want anything to happen to Peter. Not that I should worry but I guess the worry is a side effect of loving someone. Everything has side effects you know. So does everyone. After about a half-hour of argument with Tyler about a math problem, I got ready for my part-time job. Peter dropped me even to my job, how very nice to let a person have some time alone.......Maybe another galaxy would be preferable or a completely different universe.

He went home after dropping me and mumbled something about Tyler being alone could stir trouble. Thank god. Caleb gave a thin-lipped smile which indicated that he was already annoyed but why was he annoyed?

As I was about to ask a beautiful voice cooed, "Hello."I turned around to see a girl who was an inch or two taller than me with the most beautiful forest green eyes and dirty blonde hair whose smile complimented her gorgeous face.

"Like what you see, ay?" she commented, "I'm June.Caleb's younger sister and the reason for his annoyance."

Really universe now you answer my mind voice, now my prayers are answered not any other time? Yeah, I'm showing attitude to you. Do whatever you want I'm not scared. On second thought, Sorry I was just kidding. Do you uhh...universe.

"Hey. I'm Emma and I joined as a waitress just over a month ago."She wrapped me in a hug.So much for subtlety.

"I'm sorry if I startled you, it's just ..."

"It's alright."It's totally not.

"No need to be polite to her butterfly, she is an annoyance and it's okay if you're not comfortable with her, She was heading home anyway."

"Nuh-uh. I'm staying here. I'm not visiting, I'm here to stay in Ridgewood with you and mom."She pouted. She looked like a 5 year old, really cute.

"No, you're going back to dad. And stop annoying me with those faces you're making, you look disgusting."

"I think she looks kinda cute honestly."

"Really butterfly? handle her for one day I tell you. One day."

"Fine, she'll help me today."

"Anywhere away from me is fine."

"Fine," I replied. Having the last word in a fight is so satisfying.

"I'll hand you the orders. Can you place them?"

"Yeah sure."And so I served a lot more caffeine than usual. Looks like the winter chills are really starting to kick in as everyone is becoming lazy. June was really great and funny as well but why was Caleb so annoyed with her? Yeah, she talks a lot but that couldn't be it. Even I talk a lot.

"It's because of my father. Whenever he looks at me he remembers our dad and how drunk he used to be. He's changed now but Caleb's finding it hard to forgive him for his mistakes."June answered my thoughts.

"But why did you disclose something so personal? To me who you just met a while ago."

"I met you now but Caleb talked a lot about last month. And I can see you're in pain so I trust you."

"You psychic or something?"

"No, but only one bleeding soul can recognize another."Even she was hurt. We often only think about the money we inherit from our parents but we usually tend to ignore the fact that we also inherit the consequences of their mistakes and also the responsibility of maintaining their good name. How confusing are we? We say our parents' don' reflect us yet unknowingly get the pain of their mistakes.

"Well, I hope the two of you will be able to forgive yourselves and your parents. I lost both of them and I know how horrible it is to not forgive them. Life is too short to dwell on the past and you only get one chance, then why live with so many complications? I know you'll be able to because once you know the true story you'll realize the reasons for their mistakes and realize that even parents are humans."

It's true. We're all human and all of us make mistakes or give in to our emotions. So it's okay to make a mistake, We just have to learn from our and our parent's mistakes. And once we get to know the true story we really learn to forgive ourselves and others until then it's an emotional struggle, A war happens internally between the mind and the heart.

"Thanks for the advice and I hope it gets better."

"It will."I enjoyed this new me. I wasn't afraid anymore and could more clearly imagine my thoughts. Maybe whatever happened wasn't what I loved but it happened for the better I guess. I loved being comfortable in my own skin and being comfortable with myself. I finally forgave myself. It felt good and honestly, I was relieved. I felt good that I could look at myself in the mirror and not be hit by a huge pang of emotions. Not blame me for anyone's death. It felt amazing. This is self-acceptance my heart finally caught up with my mind. I loved it. This sense of freedom and no guilt after two years of suffering I guess Tyler really got me out of by making me talk about it. I could empathize and not feel self-pity or wallow in depression I was getting cured. I had accepted the truth and it made everything a lot better. This was amazing. I felt alive after 2 and a half years, I finally felt like myself again. I felt warm, happy, and satisfied. I had Peter and Tyler who I know would stay with me for life.

 I could finally trust someone. I really am happy now. And now it seemed as though I was regaining my old charm. I was on the road to betterment I could feel it. It wouldn't be easy but this time I have someone to lean on. If I change Chris's misery to happiness that would be my greatest accomplishment. He needed help just as I did a while ago and I decided to help him regardless of whatever he wanted to do. I was going to relieve Chris from his depression and show him how it was to be able to smile again, to laugh again, and to trust and love again. After my shift was over I bid my farewell to both the siblings as they continued to bicker with each other. I reached home to find Peter in the kitchen with Jake and Tyler helping him make dinner. What the hell did I miss in 3 hours? 

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