Loved By None

CHAPTER-8 THE CHALLENGE

I stayed behind...it was horrible......my heart was breaking inch by inch.....my insides churned as guilt  made its way into my soul ......I was the reason for three people to die.......not one not but three whole people to die which completely ruined a person........Chris was dying on the inside because of me...he was having to face the punishment for my mistakes......I made his life miserable......I made him the monster he is today......I ruined him....it was all because of me.....I couldn't stay put could I? My emotions were all over the place my inner voice reasoned but it was false....it was unfair for Chris to have to pay the price for my mistakes......I deserve his hate after all.....I'm nothing but an incompetent fool who makes others lives miserable just because mine is even though I have no right......I could feel hot tears dripping from my eyes ........ This was just so wrong....... so fucking wrong......

It's a pity when some one can't understand your pain but it's a shame when a person who has been tormented their whole lives gives others scars to cry upon. The stings of my emotions were being broken because of everything .It's horrible to just imagine his situation to actually live it would be hell,like actual hell. Well done Em,well done said my conscious and this was like a deathblow. The pain and the guilt along with the agony was just unbearable. I felt like dying on the spot.Chris bared with it for 2 whole years of his life.

I stayed there drowning in my pool of misery while the day passed by and it was now time for lunch.My heart sank when I heard my stomach rumble because I'm the la?st person who deserves to survive let alone eat something.I felt ashamed and unworthy of living.

I made my way to the cafeteria after having gone to the washroom to wash my face.I sat down at my usual place in the cafeteria to have my slice of pizza with apple juice.My heart sunk low in shame as I took each bite.I'm sorry I wanted to tell him but it was too late now and sorry wouldn't fix a thing.It was just a word it couldn't put him out of his misery.

He entered along with his best friends immediately my stomach churned with guilt and fear.I didn't know the whole time that I was the one who was the monster and not him.I hate myself for this I hate myself so much.

He sat down next to me instead of with his  friends at the popular's table.I cautiously moved away to place some distance between us,survival instinct ya know. But he moves closer this time,so close that our sides were touching,my left side with his right.

He leaned down towards my ear,"The farther you go the faster I'll come.So don't think about running away, I will always be the one to torture you remember that no matter what and I will be the death of you."He said holding my waist so hard that there were definitely going to be bruises here.

I swallowed as my hair rose and fear started to penetrate to all parts of my body due to his proximity while my heart sank to my stomach with guilt.What had I done? I ruined a person's life.I put Chris through so much misery.....

"After so much the minimum you can do is apologize but no why would you , stone hearted people like you only know how to steal others love not how to fix the pain they've caused to others."He continued. My eyes started to tear up.

"I didn't think sorry would suffice....I had never known I had done so much damage .....but if you want me to apologize I'm Sorry." I replied my breath shaking.

"You're right a sorry doesn't suffice, something else is on my mind."He said with his voice so dangerously low my muscles contracted."Let the games begin."he said. I was first puzzled but then understood that he wanted to take revenge. Let it  be, let him take revenge my guilt said while another part of me fear pleaded to let go.

He got up and drew everyone's attention and said,"Hey guys ,I just wanted to say that the rumors are true,Emma and I did sleep together and we both are together,we are in a relationship."