Different Kind of Love

Chapter 24 - Confusion

'It's been three months since that night, and I don't know what we are, one minute she'll be beating my ass in training, the next she'll have her tongue down my throat. That's all we've done, just kiss. I'm so fucking confused, and now I'm writing in a god damn diary. Me. Eren Jeager. I thought I knew what girls were like but shit, she is a whole new kind of crazy. Oh well, I guess I'll just have to talk it out with her, but to be honest, I don't know what to say, I don't want to lose her. I can't go through any more heart brake.' Eren threw the the book to the side and tossed the pen behind his back. It didn't matter where it landed, his room was a complete mess. Eren had meant to clean it but with all the training he just couldn't find the time, and even if he did have the time, it was spent sleeping or writing in his diary. Eren stretched and checked the clock on the wall. 7:30pm. "Shit!" Eren almost screamed, this was around the time Annie would come to his room for their 'theory' sessions, or at least that's what Reiner and Bert thought.

Eren rushed to put away the last of his clothes that were thrown around the the room, hiding them in every drawer that had even the slightest space free. Then came a knock at the door, he knew it was Annie from the way she knocked, three knocks, all loud and hard. "Eren, I'm coming in." Just as the door opened and Annie was about to walk in, Eren shut his last remaining drawer, trapping his shirt. As Eren turned to welcome Annie, the shirt didn't come lose, instead it tore from Eren's body, revealing his torso. Annie froze in the doorway. She hadn't seen his body since that night 3 months ago, but he had changed a lot, his already large muscles had expanded even more, bulging as if they were begging to be touched.

"This isn't what I looks like, I swear." Eren tried desperately to think of an excuse.

"Are you really that desperate?"

"N-no! This- this is..." Eren sighed. "Listen Annie, I've been meaning to talk to you."

"About what?"

"Us." Annie's face grew serious.

"Are you breaking up with me?"

"Wha- no! The opposite actually, I want more."

"More?"

"Yes."

"You mother fucker."

"Annie?"

"You want more? I thought you were different. You just want me for sex don't you? Was the kissing not enough."

"Annie, the kissing was amazing, but this isn't what couples do."

"So it isn't enough. I see." Annie turned to leave but Eren grabbed her arms.

"Annie... It's not like that, I told you I love you and I meant it. You know how I feel." Annie didn't reply, instead she shook Eren's hand off of her arm and stormed out of the room.

After 10 minutes of Eren standing completely still, he lost it. "FUCK!!!" He screamed. "FUCKING SHIT! FUCK IT!!" Eren screamed until he couldn't make a sound. He then proceeded to throw a tantrum, throwing off his bedsheets, smashing the lights and ripping up books. He was in a fit of rage, he thought Annie knew him better. Obviously not.

After hearing the bangs and shouts from Eren's room, Reiner ran to the door and without knocking, barged into the trashed room. He found a body on the bed, a quiet sob being muffled by a pillow. "Eren?" Reiner asked while making his way to the bed. "You ok?" The sobbing stopped immediately.

"Get out." Eren snapped.

"What's up?"

"I said get out!" Eren said taking a swing for Reiner. The reckless punch was easily blocked by Reiner who counter attacked with a quick jab to the stomach. Eren fell to the floor, struggling to breathe.

"Calm down, Eren. I know it's hard."

"You know? How could you know? You chose to do this shit, I was forced."

"What happened? You haven't been this for the last couple months."

"It's Annie."

"What about her?"

"Oh, you don't know..."

"What is it?"

"Me and Annie... We... Well I would say she was my girlfriend but right now I don't know. It's fucking bullshit."

"Well if I know Annie, I'd say that you said something you shouldn't have."

"I said that I wanted more, we were only kissing . That's the only thing we did. That isn't what couples do."

"Well go have a word with her, explain it."

"I tried."

"She's stubborn but she has an emotional side. She'll understand."

"Ok, thanks. Oh and sorry about the punch."

"Don't worry about it, you're angry, I understand. Go get Annie." Eren nodded and dashed out the door, and headed to Annie's room. He wasn't about to let this relationship go.

"Annie?" Eren asked as he knocked on the door. "Are you in?" No response. "Annie?" Still nothing. "I'm coming in." With that, Eren entered into Annie's room to find her on the bed. She layed with her earphones in, breathing gently, fresh tear tracks ran down her face. She seemed so peaceful, so fragile. Eren stared for a while, regretting all the bad he had done to her. He crawled in bed with her, wrapping her in his arms, as if he would never let go. "Don't worry Annie, I'm here. I'll never let you go again." Eren whispered into her ear. A faint smile creeped onto her face.