Journey through Lupus

Graduation

I went to Randolph-Clay the day before graduation and I found out that my typing teacher was going to fail me because I haven't been to school in two weeks. It's not like she didn't know what was going on because my dad was her coworker. Mr Hammond called me into the office to tell me that he understood my choices and I mad the right one when it came to my dad. He had her grades removed from my record. He called my mom to explain to her what has transpired and to let her know that I wouldn't get that award for typing. I was upset because I had worked my but off and took typing all those years. I should have graduated early because I actually had all my credits my junior year. She tried to talk to me but I was angry and I asked her why did she fail me? I told her that was a rough time in my life and I just didn't get it. My mom showed up to the school and they had words. I had a A average but then I failed. I was stressed and started to swell. I had noticed that every time I get upset I would swell and get a migraine. I left my high school upset. I drove home going about 75 mph. I couldn't wait to get home.

I told my mom I don't want to go to graduation. She wasn't hearing. I was depressed because my dad wouldn't be there and to top it off my teacher had tripped out. Everything was falling apart. My Aunt Charity came back that day for graduation. She told mom to let her talk to me. She convinced me to go to my graduation. Derwin told me that they needed some happiness and that would be seeing me walk across the stage.

I had a lot of raw emotions going on. My graduation was at the school where my parents taught. I was quite and tried to go with the flow of things. I remembered when they called my name for my diploma I started to cry and everyone gave me a standing ovation. I looked to the ceiling as if looking up to heaven and I whispered I love you daddy. After graduation I found out my brother wrecked his car on the way there. He had hit a deer. He showed up a little after graduation was over. My classmates were going to party in Cuthbert and they wanted me to come. I wasn't in the mood but my mom and aunt wasn't hearing that. My brother gave me some money and gave me a pep talk. I went out but only ended up crying. This guy in my class ended up taking me home. He stayed over at the house for a couple hours making sure I was ok. We use to like each other but I had Tim and wasn't going to mess that up.

The next day Tim picked me up. He gave me a surprise party at his house. My 2 best friends were there. The party was nice. I was still depressed. I just couldn't shake that feeling.

I was a skinny girl. I started to gain weight but my eating habits hadn't changed. I barely ate enough to keep a bird alive. People in Fort Gaines started a rumor that I was pregnant which wasn't true. I stayed in my room crying all the time. My mom took me to Dr Woods to see what he could do. He told my mom that I was suffering from severe depression and it could cause me to suffer with weight. In a week I was about to start FAMU. I didn't want to go but of course that was a losing battle. My mom didn't play about education.