Journey through Lupus

Adulthood

I had interned in Miami Fl. On my way to success. I had gotten married. Now living in Atlanta. It turned out that I married a monster. I was a woman caught up in domestic violence. Life wasn't easy at all. Between the beatings and my health was overwhelming. He was a nightmare from hell and he better be glad my dad wasn't living. I missed my dad so much until I really think that is why I got married. I've never seen this behavior between my parents. At first I didn't tell anyone but it got really dangerous. Guns came into play. I knew I had to get out of this marriage before I ended up dead. I did eventually leave but it was a hella of price to pay.

I had finally put the bad marriage behind me. I found love again. We had two sons. Life was on the right course finally. My first pregnancy is when I found out that I had been suffering with LUPUS. I was very ill and had to stay in the hospital most of the pregnancy. I did have a healthy son.

I started to have a lot of symptoms. I was in and out of the hospital a lot. I was stressed at home because my mate was a ladies man. Stress is not a good thing while dealing with lupus. All of these different emotions started up again and I went into a deep depression. My life was in turmoil. My health was failing me. I knew God had a better plan for me. I went into prayer. When I tell you my health started to get better everything started to fall into place. I finally had my second child after numerous miscarriages. My kidney was failing. I had my second son at 5 months. He was four pounds and I had to have surgery. They removed my kidney. I was told all the stress I've been through took a toll on me and caused me to lose my kidney. I had a hysterectomy because pregnancy wasn't for me. I was always extremely ill. Well I can say my relationship of 22 years didn't last. I gave all of me to this relationship and I felt defeated. We both were dealing with demons and we couldn't survive. I was depressed again. I ended up in the hospital with a lupus flare up again. The steroids made me gain so much weight. I would look in the mirror and I didn't recognize myself. I would cry because I was so big. I had to learn to love myself. It takes a special type of a man to be able to deal with my health issues. So far I haven't found him lol.