glasses & goggles [SLOW UPDATES]

chapter 3; earth kills

victoria's pov

"hey jaspy." i said quietly, not wanting to annoy him with my voice but still letting him know i'm here. "how you feeling?" i asked while moving a piece of his hair out of his face. he groans in response.

"he's not doing well, his pulse is 380." clarke says looking up at me with worried eyes. he groans even louder. he's probably in unimaginable pain, that should be me.

"go back to sleep!" i hear a guy yell downstairs

"quiet!" a second guy yells. this only makes jasper groan louder.

"go sleep in the woods then! we have a dude in excruciating pain up here!" i yell back, upset. i look back at jasper and see he has tears coming out of him eyes

"don't listen to them. you're going to make it through this, okay?" clarke says softly. i hum agreeing with her.

"we won't let you die, goggles. that's a promise." i say chuckling, grabbing a rag with cool water patting his face down.

"can he just die already?!" i hear a guy yell downstairs. that's it, i'm fed up. i get up and go to the ladder. i lean over it and put my head through the opening so they can hear me loud an clear.

"if you don't shut the fuck up, i'll come down there and slit your throat in your sleep. you're not making this situation any better. and you best believe that if it was you up there you wouldn't want people telling you to die!" i scream, i close the hatch just after clarke goes and gets clean water. i stomp on the floor for good measure, that should make them stop whining. i make my way over to jasper again and see him still in pain, even worse than before with monty by his side.

"the tea!" i whisper, monty widens his eyes and goes to get it for me. he brings it back and hands it to me.

"okay jasp. listen this tea is going to make you feel sleepy. it won't completely solve the problem but it'll make it more bearable. okay?" i say, he softly nods. i pick up his head slightly, and make him drink it.

"thanks victoria, for being here with me." monty turns to me and says in an appreciative tone

"of course, i wouldn't want to be anywhere else." i say quietly, not taking my eyes off jasper. "actually on second though, i'll be back. i need to get something" i laughing slightly. "there are these books my mom and dad gave me for my birthday. they're all about the plants of earth and i think i can read about some that can help as a painkiller or something." i mention quickly, my voice gets gradually quieter because i am hurriedly walking to my tent to get the supplies.

i pass by sterling on the way, he calls me over.

"hey how's that kid jasper? we all hear him from all the way out here, he must suffering" sterling says, looking down at me concerned.

i nod back. "yeah, grounders hit him through the chest with a spear, barely missed his heart," i pause trying to keep the tears from overflowing, "he'll be okay, he'll make it. i think he's stronger than we believe" i say with a hopeful smile, as sterling brings me into a hug noticing i'm about to bawl. i cry softly into his chest as he pulls me away from the crowd so people won't be nosy.

"hey, what's wrong? you're doing all that you can." he questions, worried that i'm breaking down in front of him.

"it's just-" i take a deep breath "i was there. i was with him, beside him. and i can't help but think if i would've pushed him aside this could all be avoided. that he wouldn't be going through this. this whole situation is gonna haunt him for life, sterling. i know it, it's traumatic" i say sobbing into his chest. he puts a hand on the back of my head, my back and hold me gently. like he could break me.