help me(jikook)

thirty-one

One month later
Jungkooks pov

I listen to manager scoulding me and Jimin "you two are being to obvious about your break up! ESPECIALLY you jungkook! You are even sadder than before and army are getting really suspicious! Some fans have been sending hate to me for apparently overworking you! You two need to talk to one another and sort this out! You are ruining things for the band and making bts have a bad reputation.... understand me?"

We both nod and then jimin walks out but manager stops me "jungkook.... look....you can't use your depression as a excuse again-" I cut him off "when have I ever used it as an excuse?! It's my mental health and if I had a choice I would stop being so depressed! But I don't have a choice okay?!"

Tears stream down my cheeks "you think I chose to be this way?! You think I chose to be this broken and in pain?!" Manager sighs "jungkook-" I shake my head "no no it's fine....I'll just try and fake a bit more...sorry my acting isn't great....I didn't go to a school to learn how to act...."

He looks down and I then walk out the room and more tears fall when I see all the others hugging jimin. They look at me and I see the disappointment in their eyes.
I walk to the bathroom and close and lock the door and then slide down it crying harder.

Yoongi knocks on the door "jungkook can you hurry up? Jimin needs a shower" I wipe my tears and stand up and open the door "ah sorry...." I walk out and walk to my room and then lock the door. I see my note that I had written on my bedside table

I look around and smile a little "I...I wish things were different....i-i can't do this anymore......i-it hurts too much...."

I walk into my own bathroom after putting the note on the end of my bed.
I stick a note on the bathroom door and then close the door and smile sadly in the mirror "you either win or lose I guess..........and I'm a loser in this battle...."

I look at the sink and nod "they'll be okay....."