I wonder If He'd Be Proud Of Me

Your City Gave Me Asthma

Philza had been in the Dream SMP for about a week now, he didn't really know how much his sons grew up. The only one that had stayed about the same was Techno. Tommy had grown to be strong like Techno, and took action as well as Wilbur does. Wilbur seemed to develop more of his own sense of thought, a very different way of thinking. Not that he didn't have his own sense of thought before, but it was a lot darker now.

Phil then heard singing...it was Wilbur.

"The cute bomber jacket you've had since sixth form Adorned with patches of places you've been Is nothing on my khaki coat I got From a roadside when I was sixteen"

Wilbur sounded a bit...sad. He wrote songs like this a lot, but...he seemed to connect with it a lot more than other songs.

"My boots are from airports, My backpack's from friends I'm not a man of substance, and so I'll pretend To be a wanderer, wondering Leaving ascetic belongings in hostels and restaurant bins"

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hil moved closer to where Wilbur was singing, he was singing like there weren't many periods in the sentences.

"The roads are my home, horizon's my target If I keep on moving, never lose sight of it Treating my memory of you like a fire, let it Burn out, don't fight it, and try to move on"

Then the connection became clear to Phil, he was trying to move on from L'Manberg. But...it was really hard for him. That explained why he wanted to blow it up.

"It's been sixty weeks since I saw Vienna
A bandage and a wide smile slapped across my face I'll pick up my hiking boots when I am ready And I'll put down my roots when I'm dead"

Phil was now by the doorway of Wilbur's room. He was all alone with Will, the others were doing other things. He just listened to Wilbur sing.

There was a bit of a pause.

"The distance is futile Come on, don't be hasty You'll get that feeling deep inside your bones I'll be gone then, for when you must be alone"

Phil listened as he played his guitar and ended the song, he hadn't heard Wilbur play or sing in a long time, he wasn't sure if he still did.

Wilbur put down his guitar and sighed. He was glad he got all that out...but he felt really...sad.

He just wanted to forget about L'Manberg.

He wanted to stop fighting. But...L'Manberg meant...all there was, was war. It would never stop having to fight for its freedom.

Wilbur wanted to end it and forget.

He wished he was back in SMP Earth. Things were more civil...he didn't...know he didn't actually want this. When he made smp earth he hoped this is what would happen...but now...he just wants it to end.

But...he couldn't.

Tommy loved that country.

Quackity liked it.

And his son...his son was there.

Oh god...he wondered where Fundy was...he wondered if Fundy was safe.

"Fucking hell." He said under his breath.

There was a lot of emotion he was feeling. And as much as he hated to admit it, he based a lot of his actions off of emotion, just like Tommy.

He told Tommy he could never be president...because he felt like he wasn't good enough.

God, he'd been such a bad brother...

Philza lightly knocked on the door to Wilbur's room.

"Hey...Will? You ok?" Phil asked, he was worried about his son.

"Oh hey Phil...yes I'm fine." Wilbur said.

That was partially a lie. Wilbur hadn't feeling emotionally stable.

And he knew he wasn't.

"Whats goin on Wil?" Phil could tell something was wrong.

"I...dont think...I can watch over my brothers anymore. At least...not Tommy. Techno can take care of himself, but Phil— im not...im not stable enough. Not anymore." Wilbur said as he tried to hold back tears.

Phil sat next to Wilbur and pulled him into a hug.

Wilbur still refused to cry but he still leaned into his dad.

"Dad...I dont know what im gonna do. Tommy relies on me. He looks up to me! I dont know how to be ok for him though!" Wilbur said...he was cracking.

Phil just rubbed circles on his back. He wanted Wilbur to be ok too. But the thing is...Wilbur wasn't great at accepting help much like his other brothers. But he was better at it than them.

The only problem...was Phil didn't know how to help Wilbur.

The two then heard Tommy enter the ravine with Quackity. They were both really loud, and had been laughing the whole way down.

Technoblade was in a different world currently.

Phil looked out 5he door to see them walk down the steps to the bottom of the ravine where most of the rooms were, except Tommy and Tubbo's. They were a level higher, and located right next to eachother.

Phil let go of Wilbur to check and see how Tommy was doing, and to finally meet Quackity.

A/n: it ends here, sorry its a bit short, but like— i need this for the plot next chapter. Also I was kinda stuck with this chapter so sorry its late, but I'll get more chapters out soon I promise