strawberry ghost | changlix ff ✔

twelve - eternal

it was a few weeks after the date. there's a thought that has been lingering around felix's head. he's been wanting to ask changbin but he's too scared to ask him. he was worried about what he would think of him after he asks the question.

felix waited for changbin to get home from college. he was overthinking about the situation but didn't think through.

as changbin walked it, felix sat still as a statue. "lix?" changbin called felix's name in confusion because the ghost would usually be right at the door as soon as he took a step in.

the boy walked into his room, seeing the ghost looking nervous. "lix? what's wrong?" he became worried about the ghost who looked nervous.

"um... i have someone to ask you..." he gulped. "go on." changbin curiously said. hesitant with his question, felix asked.

"will you die for me?"

changbin was in shock and confusion. he wasn't sure of what the ghost meant, but he had an idea. "will i what? can you- i don't understand. what do you mean?" he was confused cause he didn't know how he would die for the ghost if he was already dead.

"i want to be with you eternally, changbin." felix vaguely said. "i still don't understand what you mean. do you want me to... sui-" before he could finish saying that word, the ghost interrupted him.

"kind of." the ghosts reply caught changbin off guard. "you're saying that i should kill myself?" changbin finally had a clear idea of what the ghost was trying to say. the ghost stayed silent when changbin asked the question.

"what the fuck, felix." changbin whispered to himself, but it was loud enough for felix hear. felix kept silent, scared of the anger changbin let out.

"what the fuck, felix?!" changbin repeated but he shouted. it made felix flinch.

"what? are you just going to sit there? huh?!" changbin shouted at felix, causing the ghost to tear up a bit. "that was really fucked up. that was fucked up." he rages.

"i'm s-" felix was about to apologize softly but changbin interrupted him. "you think sorry is enough?! you fucking wished me death, felix." changbin was so mad that his veins started showing.

"i know!!" felix shouted back. "so? are you going to do anything?" changbin clenched his teeth. "i said i'm sorry." felix softened his voice. "god damn it, f-" before changbin could finish his sentence, the ghost disappeared.

"felix?" changbin looked around the room, unable to find the ghost. he gulped, he felt like it was done. over... he felt like it was over for them.

he knew it was quite dramatic, but how would you keep up a relationship with a ghost? "it was a bad idea."  he thought to himself.

changbin knew it was the ghost's fault, but he still felt guilty. "fuck..." he flopped himself onto the bed. he closed his eyes, just thinking but he eventually fell into slumber.

meanwhile, on felix's side, he was on the rooftop. he was laying down on the bench, waiting for someone.

"i shouldn't have asked that." he regretted it. he was just thinking about everything while waiting for her.

her.

who is "her"?

felix sighed. he stared at the stars, thinking of how he and changbin could be watching the stars shine, but no... "why do i have to be so stupid?" felix said to himself.

"you're not stupid, felix." a calming voice, coming from a woman, said. "well, i am for what just happened awhile ago." felix furrowed his eyebrows.

"you're not stupid. you're just in love with him, that you don't want to lose him." she sat next to the bench felix was laying down on. felix sat up to have a proper conversation with her.

"felix, you only have a week left." she mentioned, stressing felix out. "i know, i know." he ran his hand through his hair.

"now, i must go. take care, felix." she disappeared. felix watched her disappear into the air.

now, who is she? she brings the ghosts who have accomplished their dreams, the ghosts who feel eternal happiness, she brings them to the stars. she takes the happy ghosts to the stars and let them shine.

felix only has a week to spend with changbin. the thought made felix feel heavy. he wanted to solve the argument they had but he was afraid that changbin would just scream at him again, but then again, it was his fault.

felix went back to the apartment, to see his beautiful boyfriend sleeping peacefully on the bed. he caressed the sleeping boy's cheek. he flinches because of the coolness he felt from the ghost's hand. the ghost backed off from the boy.

felix decided that he would explain his situation tomorrow morning, hoping that he would still be in his room when he checks up on him.