All There Is

Chapter 10-Hardin

I rush up the stairs to find the most beautiful girl in the world rough housing with some guy.I try to pull her off him but she shrugs me off and goes for his balls.I'm guessing this girl hurt her really bad because the amount of force she just used to kick him in the private area with is enough to break any mans area.

I stand there for a second, covering my own area scared that she might just come back and attack mine.I then snap back to the reality of the situation when I hear this poor guys cries.She really hit him in his penis.

I grab Tessa and pull her off him.Through all of her fighting and kicking,I somehow get her down the stairs, out the house, and into the back of Landon's car which I borrowed to get here.Once she realizes it's me she lays her head onto my chest and cries into it."I'm a whore now."She cries.

"Your not.Your not at all Tess.You're gonna be okay."I whisper into her ear over and over again while caressing her golden-blond hair.It's only been a day and I already feel this attachment towards this girl.She needs me right now and I am gladly going to be here for her.

After several minutes of this she pulls away and wipes her tears.I sigh and look at her for a moment, helping her wipe her face from her now dry tears."Are you okay?"I ask and she looks away from me with a sigh.

"I-I'm fine Hardin thank you."

"Don't think I can say the same for that guys private area."I tease and she scoffs.

"Good."She mutters under her breathe.There is an awkward silence for a moment.Tessa stars smiling a little and turns to me "Private area?Really Hardin?You can't say penis."

My face turns a peach red as I look at her, eyes wider than I don't know something really wide.This only make Tessa laugh and really hard.She seemed so sad so the fact that my lack of sexual experience can bring her laughter doesn't make me feel the best but her smile makes up for it, as always."Jesus.Hardin chill out."

"Landon told me about your past."I blurt out and her smile immediately fades.She looks down at her fingers on her lap, playing with them, a nervous habit I suppose.

"Really?And what exactly did he tell you Hardin?"She says, jaw clenched and teeth gritted.I almost want to cover my private right now, scared that she might just do the same to that guy but to me.I know she's capable of it, clearly she left that guy crying in pain.

"About your past, which you shouldn't be ashamed of."I say, tucking a hair behind her ear.She looks at me and for a second, just a second, she is vulnerable.Of course I don't want her to be vulnerable, I want her to feel strong at all times, especially when she's with me.But the fact that she trusted me enough, even just for a second, to be vulnerable means so much to me.She's so closed off from everything and I obviously no some part of why.Tessa needs fixing and I can fix her,I know I can.I would spend my entire life trying to fix the broken blond girl that is sitting before me.The second ends though and her walls are back up.She shrugs me off her and sniffles, wiping her nose.

"You wouldn't know about it Mr.Perfect."She looks at me, her eyes boring into mine.Hurt.When you look at her blue-grey eyes you see the color but when you look into them deeply all you can see is hurt.I have to remember that going into this,Tessa is hurt.

"I do actually.More then you know Tess."I say softly.I know she expects me to blow up in her face and get annoyed with that fact that she automatically assumes,I'm perfect, but I'm not because that's what I was taught even as a young kid that people should portray me as.I should be perfect and nothing less than that.

"What?"

"I know what you mean Tessa.I need to show you now."I say softly.We are still in the same position with my arm around her back, just sitting in the back of her best friends car.

"Okay."Her voice is small, which is a new one for Tessa.For such a confident person, she seems pretty small and that's okay.I just wish she saw it that way.

"Okay?"I ask.I didn't expect for her to actually agree.

"Yes,okay.Let's go back to the dorm."She slides to the other side of the car and opens the door,to exit.I just sit there dumbfounded,is she leaving?

She then opens the door and slides into the front seat,her head turns back towards me and she raises a brow."You coming?"

"Y-Yeah.I just thought..."

"Thought what?"

"Nothing."I mutter under my breathe.She already thinks I'm clingy,theres no point in giving her more evidence to that fact.I slide into the drivers seat and smile at her.She returns it.

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We arrive at our dorm and she turns around to face me."Okay."She breathes."How do we deal with this shit?"

"I don't know,whatever you comfortable."

"Why don't we just sit down?"She asks,gesturing toward my bed.

"Yeah."I nod.We take a seat on my bed,avoiding eye contact.

"Okay so I don't really like talking about this and I respect you if you don't ever want to be around me again."

"I don't think that's possible Tessa."I say,her eyes go wide and her pupils dilate.

"Okay."She says awkwardly,clearing her throat.I'm such a dork."How much do you know exactly?"

"He told me about how your parents left you,how you lived with your grandparents,the death of your grandfather,and then he told me about your boyfriend.He told me about how he made you feel like shit and then you went crazy but the rest was for you to tell me."I say.She let's out a long breath."I don't think of you like that."She looks at me,shocked at my revelation."I don't think your crazy Tessa.You were just grieving and that's okay."I rubs her shoulder but she shrugs me off.

"I wasn't just grieving though.I did go crazy."

"What did you do Tessa?"