After a few minutes of Molly just holding me at the door I finally pull away and sniffle."Sorry I was just overwhelmed I guess."I sigh.She grabs my hand and pulls me inside sitting me down on the bed.
"It's find Hardin.Your my best friend It's okay to cry in front of me."She says with a warm smile.Molly has been my best friend for a long while now.She knows literally every single thing about me and is my person when it comes to venting at my annoyance with Steph or stress with school.She just gets me in that way.Her and Steph however have never gotten along because Steph thinks I'm always cheating with her.It is so annoying and Molly detest Steph as do I but Steph just can't seem to take the hint I guess.
"I know it just doesn't seem...manly or whatever."I laugh at how stupid I sound saying this.
"Hardin you do realize just because you have another thing down there doesn't mean you don't have feelings?"She laughs."Besides isn't there that sang that real men cry or something"She continues on, reassuring me that it's okay to cry like I knew she would.
"So are you gonna tell me what happened?You know whatever it is I'm here for you right."She says giving me a reassuring nod.I then go into full detail from the second Tessa walked through the door to the moment she basically told me I meant absolutely nothing to her and I walked out.I said everything word for word of what had actually happened so I can get Molly's honest opinion.I honestly just want her to tell me I'm not crazy.That I'm not being a baby over nothing and I actually have a reason for being this upset.
"Well she was obviously wrong but Hardin I gotta say she does have a point.You guys met that very day it's normal for her not to have feelings for you, that would be crazy for you guys to already like each other.You know I believe in a lot of things but "love at first sight"isn't one of them"She says honestly.
"I know Molly but I don't know.I just felt really upset.We had a moment."I say.
"Yeah a sexual one.Hardin this girl clearly doesn't value sexual experiences as much as you do for whatever reason.Now I don't agree with her seducing you into submitting to whatever she was planning on doing but at least now you know that you can't get wrapped on in this.Also you have a girlfriend and as much as I seriously dislike Steph nobody deserves to be cheated on."She says with brutal honesty.One of the reasons Molly is my absolute best friend is because she is completely honest with me whether I am right or wrong.She tells me how it is and I admire her for that.
"Yea your right.But so what do i do?Do I tell Steph or do I just...not?"I ask not meeting her eyes clearly ashamed of my actions.If I'm being completely honest I don't want to tell Steph about my ordeal mainly because I know she will go screeching to my mom and I can't bear to see the disappointment in my mother's face that I know will come that second the news is shared with her.
I have always tried so hard to please my mother.But it always felt like no matter what I did I never had done enough.I just want to do enough.I mean I worked as soon as I was able to,I never drink even tho I am of age, I have perfect grades,I have even am dating the most horrible clingy girl ever just to please her.Yet it isn't enough.
"Well Hardin I think you should tell her but ultimately it's off you.Or you could just cut out the middle man and straight up break with her."Molly smiles suggestively and I laugh at her.
"You know I couldn't do that."I smile looking down picking at my nails, just a habit.
"Why not Hardin?You hate that girl and I hate her,It's perfect.Just break up with her.I can't spend a good five minutes with my best friend without having her harass me about it.I know you hate her just as much.Dude just do it."Molly lets out a large sigh and leans back against the wall next to her bed.
"You know I can't."I sigh.
"I know but I'm just gonna imagine you can."She smiles with her eyes close and I laugh.
The rest of the evening is spent with us just catching up and of course ranting about how irritable Steph is.Thankfully,Tessa didn't come up.That girl is an enigma to me.I don't understand what I'm supposed to do with this feeling but knowing she doesn't want what I wan't at all doesn't make her appealing at all.In fact it just makes the already ginormous question mark I associate with her even bigger.
After saying my goodbye's to Molly I make my way back to my dorm to find that Tessa isn't here.Our dorm is left the exact same way but it is missing the blond mystery with the gorgeous grey-blue eyes.I push the thoughts of why she isn't here to the side and do my normal night routine which consists of shaving my stubble and the other normal hygienic necessities considering I already shower I just skipped that one.
I settle in my bed and check my phone after having turned it off to find multiple irritable text from Steph.I have to remind myself she is my girlfriend multiple times before I block her.Her text read...
*Hey can you call me?*
*Hardin.*
*Hardin.*
*Hardin*
*Hardin*
*Hardin are you gonna answer or just keep ignoring me?*
*Are you cheating on me?*
*I swear to god if your with that Molly girl I will break up with you*
I contemplate just telling her I will so she can break up with me but that's to much of a headache for now and I am really tired.I simply text her that I was getting everything ready for my school tour tomorrow and that I had my phone off like I always do when studying.She buys into the lie and I send her an ingenue I love you so I can sleep knowing that I won't wake up to her spamming me once again along with my mother.I have no idea why my mother likes Steph so much but she does and it is the most annoying and unlucky thing to ever happen to me.
That being sad I drift off into sleep and dream of a life where I can be with someone I actually want not Steph.Maybe someone like Tessa.I don't know let's save that problem for dream Hardin.
I jolt awake at the sound of a bang and a "shit" under someone breath.I switch on the lamp on my night stand to find Tessa in a dress that is ripped up at the bottom, messed up hair, make up all over her face, and she is clearly drunk.
"Hardin."She breathes and a smile breaks to her face.She runs over to me and hugs me.I have no shirt on so she feels my bare back which is amazing.But something is bugging my mind and it is to loud to ignore.
"What the hell happened?"
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Fiksi PenggemarWhat if Tessa was the bad girl and Hardin was the good boy?I read a story called After:What if and you should totally read it cause it is amazing.But pretty much it's about if Tessa had both her parents and so did Hardin.I liked it but I thought it...
