Deep Thinking State of Mind...

Insomnia( All these thoughts)

Do u fall asleep as soon as you try to sleep?

If yes then I can't relate...

I spend all night imagining scenarios that will never come true.

When others are deep in sleep
Thousands of thoughts raise in my mind

🎶🎵 Insomnia a-a-ah cuz I can't sleep without you
Wish I had my arms wrapped around you 🎶🎵

Plotting epic stories , from the names of characters to the whole plotline of the story itself. I have so many stories planned out from the beginning to end but couldn't write them yet( hopefully they will come soon so stay tuned!)

If I'm not doing these ,I'm thinking back to past experiences...
Remembering epic comebacks I could have said in an argument but what's the point now lol.

Thinking about a single moment multiple times, analyzing every small detail and overthinking about them.

Or else questioning life in general , why is this like that why is that like that?

Questioning my existence...

What unknown creatures and world might exist in outerspace , other universe or deep underwater. All that still haven't been discovered and might never be.

All the historic lost cities , tribes , those people and their lifestyles , all buried and lost under the ground or under the sea. The people who were there before us

And the people coming in the future...what will it be like , what new amazing gadgets will be invented.

Smiling and showing happiness all day in front of others but crying alone at night.
My faithful pillow knows all the tears I wept, thinking about past experiences and missing people who don't even think about me.

Have you ever went inside the washroom , cried your heart out and came back smiling as if nothing had happened ? Well I have...

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?

All these thoughts keep me up at night .
What am I doing , am I doing right?

🎵🎶

I need to breathe, get me up and out of these sheets
On to my feet, another cup of coffee in me
That's what I need, my eyes puffy, I can't see
I'm too tired to function but too lost to sleep, ey
I think I need to be on something, medication
I think I need to figure out this segregation
I think I needed just a better education
To understand a world that's so complicated
Intoxicated every night, faded
Just so I can sleep, thinking that it's aiding
I feel hated, I feel hatred
I'm lost, deep in my mind, that I've created
I have dreams where my life is devastated
Feels so real that I wake up shaken
Need thicker skin 'cause this life is no haven

I don't really think I understand this world, no
Got my head spinning round in a circle
Everybody lacks what they need internal
So they compensate with everything external
Not tryna throw shade, no way
I'm just trying to find the meaning of life, hey
There's happiness if you try to live the right way
Forget about what others have and live your life, hey
Be aware of who you are, what you're good at
Take a step forward, see where your foot's at
Stand tall, stand proud, talk loud
Every word out your mouth has purpose now
You just gotta get rid of the bad thoughts
Hating others 'cause you know that they got a lot
Forget that though, you got plenty
You're alive in this life, you got time go get it
Oh, all these thoughts keep me up at night, yeah
What am I doing, did I do it right? yeah
All these thoughts keep me up at night, yeah
I can't think straight, need the light