Entanglement [COMPLETED✔]

19

Alex

I tried to remember what I did, how I managed to fuck up this situation even more. But I couldn't remember anything and I grew more ashamed, I grew hating myself because how could I have possibly mistaken Jennifer for Laura. How could I have fallen into bed with her?

Thinking hard about it, the only thing they shared was… nothing. Absolutely nothing. Jennifer's hair was dark brown while Laura's was long and rich black. Her eyes were deep green while Jennifer's were hazel. Jennifer was… she was no one while Laura lived in my blood. 

I was a fucking fool for doing this to Laura, conscious that now my chances of getting her back were slim to none. That if I ever found her, I'd have to tell her everything from the beginning and I'd have to come clean about all the lies I told her. And I knew it would break her, I knew I'd break the trust she had in me and break any lingering feelings- if she had any in me- when I told her what I did with Jennifer.

And I could only hope that telling her that I loved her would allow me the chance at her again. Even though I didn't deserve it. I didn't deserve her. 

Sitting in the kitchen, I couldn't help but remember our frenzy on the table. How Laura had opened her legs for me, calling me all types of names until she was squeezing me tightly. 

I could still remember her so vividly, her eyes, her smile, everything. 

I missed her. So much.

Closing my eyes, I was tempted to drag Jennifer out of this house. It wasn't mine, it was Laura's and I had fucked up and she didn't deserve this. 

"Alex, love." My eyes snapped opened to see Jennifer on the threshold of the kitchen, wearing my shirt.

I grew disgusted at the sight. The audacity she had, to stand there in my shirt, to smile at me as if she hadn't taken advantage of my drunken state. "Get the fuck out," I snapped at her. "What happened shouldn't have. What you did was wrong. You-" 

"Come on Alex. Don't lie. You and I know that we are meant to be-" Jennifer smiled at me, taking a seat- "You never forget your first love." 

Love? I wanted to laugh at her. "You think I loved you?" I shook my head, "I dont know what I was thinking all those years ago, by proposing, by thinking I'd like to spend my life with you but now I know how messed up our love was. I know that what I felt was a poor example of love." 

She flinched. "Alex."

I stood up, tired with her. "No Jennifer. You see, you can't do this. You can't come back and expect me to run to you. What happened was wrong. You destroyed what I had, you came here and-"

"And what Alex? I came her and what? Ruined your relationship with Laura?" 

I froze, my eyes widening. I- how? My heart picked up but I willed it to slow down, my words coming out as nonchalantly as they could. "What ever do you mean?" 

This time she laughed, "You were drunk Alex. Drunk. You confused me with Laura. Kept moaning out her name each time you pushed deep in me, so tell me who is she?" 

Everything. "Doesn't matter," I replied coldly. 

A snort, Jennifer's eyes twinkling. "Why because she was your daughter?-" I grew cold with each word- "You fucking sicko. You're in love with your daughter," she laughed. 

"She's not my daughter," I bit out. Laura wasn't my daughter, we didn't share blood. We didn't do anything wrong. 

Jennifer shrugged, "That statement won't hold up in court. How old is she? 18? 19? Pretty sure it doesn't matter. She's way younger than you and you took advantage of her."