A new duo

Chapter 1

Trigger warnings: mentions of abuse, neglect, nightmares, mental disorders and more:

Peters POV:

After Tony's funeral, I've slowly became more closed off and I don't talk as much. I spend all my time in my makeshift lab in my apartment in Queens, until I could finally afford a new house. I used to use my aunts old room after she was sadly killed in a hit and run but now I have my own lab. I'd gained quite a bit of money from doing shield missions assigned by fury.

I haven't cried since Titan, I refuse to show weakness in front of anyone anymore. I won't let anyone else die because of me. I know I've shut anyone and everyone out but it's for their own good, anyone close to me dies. My parents, my uncle, my aunt, Tony, my girlfriend, my best friend.

An: In this it is Tom Holland portraying Peter Parker but I've added in some bits and pieces from the other films/comics. Like Gwen and Harry. In this Gwen was his girlfriend from 13-15 years old and she was thrown off the clock tower into a fire by Harry (the green goblin). Eventually, Peter caught the green goblin but he didn't realise he had a bomb on him so Harry died. NOT CANON! Also in this, his parents died when he was 14, his uncle when he was 15 and his aunt at 17. His parents were known scientists and shield agents. His father was a cold hearted ass but his mother was fine. His father was a drunk who was never happy with Peter no matter what. He was verbally abusive and sometimes physically like he would throw beer bottles as Peter when he was drunk. Nobody knows this though. Ben and May weren't abusive but they were always working and never had time for him. AGAIN NOT CANON!

I miss Tony so much it's ridiculous, he was the only person who ever believed in me. Everyone else doubted me and said I'd never make it in life, even my father. He was exactly like Howard Stark, cold, calculative and a drunk who had no care for his son. He never once told me he loved me and I was never hugged or comforted by him. Even as a child I was left to cry until I got over it myself. Nobody knows this though, they knew he wasn't the best father but they didn't know he was a drunk.

My mother on the other hand was perfect. She was beautiful, loving and kind. She would always treat my wounds that I got from my father, Richard Parker. They were killed in a plane crash that was shot down by HYDRA when I was 14. She told me before she died that Richard wasn't actually my biological father but she was my real mother. She never told me who was though. Apparently my real name isn't even Peter Benjamin Parker but she said the real files were hidden away. Richard never found out luckily otherwise he'd have hated me even more.

Growing up, I was never once praised by the bastard. To be honest, it's probably why I looked up to Tony so much. We had nearly identical childhoods. Except he had all the paparazzi to deal with. I have them now whenever I'm on patrol but not when I'm as Peter Parker. When I was younger I tried my hardest to please my father but it was never good enough. I could build a bloody car by age 10. I've memorised the entire periodic table and radioactive isotopes by age 8 but it was never enough. I was never enough. I've been battling many mental disorders since I was young. I was diagnosed with anxiety at 10, depression at 9, ADHD at 3, PTDS at 14. I have to take meds for all except PTSD as there isn't much you can do. I had a therapist since I was 9 but it didn't work so I quit it as soon as my mother and father died.

I learnt how to speak several languages and how to sing, dance and play the piano. I can speak fluently in: English, Russian, French, Spanish, Mandarin and Italian. I also know sign language.

I was also diagnosed with insomnia at age 5. I've had nightmares almost every night since I was roughly 3 or 4. Many were about my father but nowadays it's a variety. Everyone who died blaming me, my father in a drunk rage, my mother dying in front of me, everyone who is still alive dying because of me and even myself dying.