Bleach, Loving Star (3rd Book)

~...........who is this..........~

Drop

Drip

Drop

What was this. What is this.

I look at my arm, my whole body in fact, and see blood.

My body, is it coming to a limit, or am I just getting tired

This, it's a dream, it's all a lie.

"Mommy mommy!"

I looked over to see my eyes open

I realized I was at home, I fell asleep on the couch on accident again,

I've been more sleepy then usual, but I looked at him

And her, they smiled at me with them in shock

"Mom, did you cut your arm again, here it's everywhere"

I looked at him bandaging me up, as I smiled.

I couldn't speak, I don't know why, but I just couldn't talk.

They still understood my actions though, which made me smile

When he was done wrapping my arm she sat on my lap and smiled

"Mommy, your so beautiful, I hope I grow up to look just like you!"

She said and I smiled at her, while she played with my hair

"I hope, that one day we can see the baby!"

She said and I nodded, the baby was at the hospital since he was premature

I know I'm supposed to know their names, they're my children

They are the joy to my life, right in front of me, but I can't remember their names

I'm a pretty horrible mother aren't i?

"Honestly, Misana your not going to grow up to be just like mom, you might be like dad in the future"

He said and she, Misana, gave a look

"Shuuhei, I can be whatever I want!"

He, Shuuhei, scoffed while grinning.

I now remember, I remembered before but the names were faint.

But the thing about this world is I can't remember the faces of people around here but us 3

Other people have dull, lifeless colors, along with no faces, theirs nothing there but they act like normal people

Sometimes Shuuhei and Misana, I think that my voice can't be reached out to you

I can't scold you when you're fighting. I can't praise you when you come home with good grades.

I can't even hold you without it being cold, because my warmth can't reach you.

I don't know why, but it's just so confusing, in this big house that never has anything happen

I can't even, hold

Ichigo, because just like in the past, he wasn't here but in my heart he was there.

I think I'll fall asleep again..

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"Daddy daddy I made a picture!"

I looked over from my seat and looked at Misana smiling

She had my hair, but her mother's face, which brought me to joy

Her hazel eyes looked at me while holding up the picture pointing to it

"Look.. This ones a cat, like Yourichi, then this one is a dog, I don't know, he could be uncle Uryu, then there's you, me, Shuuhei and Mommy, all together while sitting in the living room!"

I looked at the people on the paper and smiled at it, she doodles a bit on it but it was adorable,

I picked her up and then took her giggly self to the kitchen

She couldn't hear me, Shuuhei couldn't either or anyone else, I don't know why.

But I must be a mute now since the incident, atleast I'm with them now

And kate can't even hear me, so it was a struggle

"You want me to put it on the fridge, ok!"

She said putting the magnet over her drawing on the refrigerator smiling

"Looks spiffy!"

She said then looked at me as she gave me a hug, she was cold.

They were all cold, like walking corpses, but I didn't know what it was

That made them like that.

"I'm home!"

I heard Shuuhei call from the living room, I walked with Misana and she hugged him
"Big brother your home!"

She yelled and he started taking his stuff off when he looked at me

"I'll go play with Misana dad, she can help me study"

He said and I nodded as he lifted her to go to his room as she giggled

"Yay, will we be doing math?"

She asked and that's all I could hear from her after words

Something,, is so different about this world.d.

I can't remember what but something is missing, something important, but I can't remember

Maybe, it was shopping, or maybe, I don't even know anymore.

I just sat on the couch looking up and putting my hand over my heart

Is this the way I'm going to live forever....?
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Is this the way I'm going to live forever......

Not being able to see the faces of others.....

My voice, not reaching out to them..

Not to feel my warmth...

While I just sit there, watching them grow as I smile..

Wanting to say so much, but can't..

The time here is normal, but I'm not..

The faceless people look at me weirdly...

The weather is never changing....

The little children that Misana plays with looks at her weird...

Shuuhei notices also, but isn't aware..

What.. Is going on.

Everyone.
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