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War 1

~ POV: Xisuma ~

War. It's a monster. It destroys us. Yet, it's inevitable. Especially when things like the AI exist. There's no peace without blood. It's destroys, but it'll always be there.

''X! Please! Help me!''

We can't avoid it, no matter how hard we try. The fighting will end, but soon another battle will take it's place

''Everything hurts. I don't think I can fight anymore.''

The leaves falls from the trees, like soldiers on the battlefield

''Where is he? X, what happened to Jess?''

There's a leaf in my hand. I need to protect it. 

''This is all that's left.''

The leaf is broken. Just like us.

''NO! Python!''

So much hate

''I don't wanna die.''

Too much dying

''Please.''

All those lives lost

''I can't.''

And it's my fault

''They.. They got Biffa, sir.''

I failed them

''5 times sir. That's how many times the bullets hit me.''

I shouldn't be alive

''Please! Generik! I can't lose you! Please!''

''I'm sorry X. You'll have to be the leader now. Promise you'll protect the others?''

''Generik? Generik! Wait! I can't- Yes sir. I'll miss you.''

''X! X! Oh no, oh no. Can you hear me X?''

I could hear them, whoever it was, talking to me, but I couldn't hear their words. Not with all this pain. They're right behind me, I can feel it. They wrap their arms around me and pull me up, holding me on their lap, forcing me to take slower breaths. Once the fog in my mind clears, I look back to see Keralis, his eyes wide.

''Deep breaths Shashwammy. Deep breaths.''

I force myself to calm down, as Keralis tightens his hold on me. Soon, all that's left are tears and the slight shivering. Keralis looks at me, then takes hold of my shoulders and turn me so that I look directly at him.

''Now tell me Shashwammy, are you okay?''

''I- No.''

''Would you like to tell me about it?''

I nod, them tell him about everything. About the nightmares that plague my sleep each night, about how much generik's death really affected me, about how much it hurt to see the others in pain, and about how I failed everyone.

''Shashwammy, it's not your fault. Don't blame yourself for something you couldn't control.''

''But that's the problem! I'm the one who chose to keep us on the front line after Biffa died! Now Grian, Ren, Bdubs, Doc, Jevin, Etho, Tango, Impulse, Scar and Iskall are in the med bay in who knows how much pain! It's all my fault Keralis! I'm a terrible leader. Why did he choose me? I-''

''Calm down, and listen to me. This isn't your fault, and it never will be. You didn't know they'll use bombs, neither did you know one of them would hit us.''

''You're right, I'm sorry. I just miss them so much.''

''I have an idea. I'll go talk to one of the generals, and see if he can give us access to the med bay. It'll do you and them good to see each other. That ok?''

''Yes, thank you Keralis. You're the best.''

''No problem, anything for Shashwammy.''