Betty & James

Chapter 12: tears ricochet

James' Point of view
Dedicated to: Monica_Ahuja
Betty was there... In front of my classroom. I know I already proposed to August, but I can't help seeing her face. She knocked on the door hoping the teacher would let her in. Mr. Markus twisted the doorknob and opened it with a small gap. He asked her what does she need. Then she told him if he can excuse me to talk to her. Her eyes... I can't stop thinking about what I did wrong. She is the one who decided to break up with me. Her parents even banned me so I couldn't visit her in the hospital. Dylan was kinda dumb to knock her out accidentally. Many years of my time being with Betty had already ended.

All that time just got wasted...

Mr. Markus said that it was okay for her to talk to me since I completed my last submission of my homework.

"What is it now Betty?"

I don't know what to ask her. It is really confusing on which words won't hurt her the most. Yes, she was my first and only girlfriend. I lost her and it is me to blame. Years with her was the best experience I got.

But I know...She deserves better.

Someone better than me. I then sensed tears streaming down from my left eye. I felt horrible at this moment. What kind of question was that James? How should I act around her after what I did with August?

She then placed her hand beside my left cheek to wipe away the tears. My tears ricochet and made my hands tremble by stopping myself from removing her hand from my face. Nervous I was around this girl. August...What about August? I am already destined to marry her after graduation.

I can't imagine a life without this girl in front of me.

Betty...

Betty.

All my thoughts are filled with what-ifs. Is this the last time I will be able to see her?

Her touch,

her kiss...

Her embrace.

Her lovely grace...

Her masterpiece of artworks.

Her love that lasts forever?

None of that I deserve. None of it! She reminds me of how the fire kept me warm in the winter. Of how I died inside as she dumped me.

None of that matters now. I'll always remain as her past lover. My silence broke down as she heard my voice.

"I'm sorry about everything." She just smiled like an angel from heaven. Every passing moment was crucial for me to wait and hear her voice again.

"It's alright...Humans like us make mistakes. I hope you are feeling better now. I now know everything. I just got jealous of how you treat August like your Queen. Like she had always been better than me for you to love. I just got out of the hospital. I don't think I could fix things with Dylan. So...Now you got a new girlfriend. Take care of her, as you did to me when we are together."

"I know and it's time that we make amends and let go of each other... August is pregnant. And I can't change things because I cheated on you."

She then bursts into tears. I can't hug her like before. Staying away from her was what I can do to make no one notice how much I still love her.

Distance is what I needed.

After all the trouble I caused...

My classmates are watching me now.

That meant the whole school will know about this encounter.

"Stop crying don't waste your tears for me. I never wanted to see you like this. Betty...Please stop crying in front of me."

I begged her... I need to end this conversation, it is going nowhere.

"I'm not okay James. You know how much everything had fallen into place. Dylan hates you. Ashton hates you... You guys fought and I just can't help seeing you almost getting murdered by them. It really sucks!"

She forced herself to smile. The empty halls made our voices echo louder than usual. The sadness I felt was nothing compared to hers. I wished I could tell her everything I felt... I can't anymore. Both of us have separate fates. Mine was intertwined with August while she was now with Dylan.

"I don't know how I can say farewell. Maybe Goodbye is better. I need to leave you here." Betty reminds me of the joy we once shared. She walked away and look back at me as she entered her classroom.

My fault for being drunk at prom night.

My fault for following August that night.

My fault for becoming jealous of Dylan and Betty.

She looks so happy with him.

I wasn't there because I was never like Dylan.

I was never her close childhood best friend.

Her blue eyes...Her blonde golden hair. Everything colorful about her turned my world into the darkness that I can't escape. My mouth was shut into a serious look I put on. August was inside my classroom and I think she heard me. Mr. Markus smiled at me for no proper reason. "Love problems right loverboy?" Inez said and laugh as hard as she normally would. My other classmates laughed with her. I knew I am a jerk since that day. Inez then took a paper from her notebook and handed it over to August.

August opened it and then she covered her mouth when she saw what's in it.

"Ashton ask me to give that to you. Summer bummer. Hahaha!"

Inez laughed at her while August crumpled the paper and thrown it at her forehead. "Gossip Bitch!" August covered her mouth and looks at Mr. Markus who was still here in class. I picked up the crumpled paper and was about to open it. Mr. Markus asked me to hand the paper to him. I gave it to him.

"Inez, you and Ashton will be in detention. Miss Summers and Mr. Robinson, meet me at the faculty office later.

"Ughh fine sir." Inez rolls her eyes and looked at Ashton who winked at her. She then smirked like a bully.

"Dear August. We know you are gonna be a teenage pregnant queen. Congrats on being a whore who stole James from Betty. Sincerely, Ashton and Inez."

Mr. Markus paused and looked disappointed with how childish his senior high students are.
"So, is this true James? I thought you are a responsible student. I need to report this to our principal."

Even though the marriage proposal was in secret. I never told the school about the mistake me and August did.

😕 Wews...
What the hell should I do now?