MATING WITH THE MATED KING

***26: I DESERVE IT

Song: The mountain -Faouzia

               *I DESERVE IT*

He looked calm but you could see the storm approching, those eyes. I shivered in fright but had to hold myself in.

"You say what?!" He shouts, pushing to stand on his feet with crunched brows. Confusion was shown on his beautiful features.

"I said I don't want to be with you anym-"

"Don't." He warned, his index finger pointing at me. Eyes narrowed deeply, he was calm but you could feel the anger burning in him.

My Alberto, you ruined me.

I looked him. That's all I could do. The was nothing and I mean nothing else I could do but stare. His eyes captured mine and I forgot what I said for a second.

How did I end up with someone like him. One minute his angry the next his sad then his happy and then turns all cold and acts as if I wasn't there in front of him.

I swear this man is begging me to leave him. His openly asking me to leave and walk away from him.

But I can't, his my mate. My king and maybe my everything. But most importantly I don't want to leave. I want to stay with my man if he is.

I want him for myself. But he doesn't understand. How could the goddess do me like this? Does she want to see me suffer or is she punishing me for something.

He must think I'm stupid if I'll stay with my mouth shut. My whole life has been fucked up, a mess and he doesn't even care. He only makes it worse.

Who doesn't want a happy life? I want one and I only ask for that and nothing more nor less. I swear I need it. I think I'm about to hurt somebody. Maybe myself. I'm tired I want my heart at peace and hurting and he doesn't care.

"Do you think I'll sit here and be your play toy!"

"I'm no toy you can play with. Hurting me and making me heal and hurting me again!!" I shouted. I shouted my heart out.

"I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. Your the worst thing that ever happened to me. You made my life a living hell and even if you did I seem to only want you. You are a spoiled fucker who can't get his life straight his shut and his head! I wish you weren't mate! I wish I never met you you are a piece of shit a goddamn fucker and I hate you for doing this to me!" I sobbed so loud my voice echoed as I lowered my head.

All the time he stood there with a straight face and a cold look on. He just stared at me. He looked calm but cold. I don't even know who this man is anymore, is this still Alberto or what?

I cried. I'm sure every guard and servent heard me. The palace was quiet but knew very well he ordered everyone to stay in.

"Your my mate." He said , in a whisper and I hardly heard if because of my loud cries.

I glared at him through the tears that fell from my eyes. This man will be the death of me. "And does that say you can lie to my face and let me remind you that you don't own me!" I yeld.

"Don't think that I'll be a saint. I'm your mate. You except me as I am." He said calmly, his face cold and I had no clue what he was thinking.

"What do you want from me?" I asked. " Tell me!"

"Lena, you don't get it. I'm only trying to keep you safe."

"I understand it clearly, Alberto! Tell me what you trying to protect me from!?" I stood. Even if I try to look intimidating, his strong and tall features only made me feel small and week. Made me as if I'm some ant or a disturbing bug.