How Do I Love You?

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a few weeks later, thursday 🌶🌶🌶

i would always catch him staring at me, during meals, or during our classes. i miss him, but i can't be with someone who doesn't know what they want, who can't make up they're mind on what they feel.

he told me he didn't miss me, then he had the nerve to kiss me, he brought me back to the epiphany of love that i ached for. but i couldn't let that plethora of passion and lust consume me, i had to drive that urge out of my system.

so, i slapped him.

that moment replayed in my head every day since it happened.

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draco's POV

it was thursday after classes, when i saw her walking with nicolas back to the common room. her walk was effortlessly beautiful. her dark, ebony hair flowed down in voluminous waves, and her emerald eyes twinkled when the sunlight hit them. her eyes, they looked happy. she finally looked happy. happy...without me. her tears no longer brimmed the edges of her eyes, they were no longer dried on her soft skin. what could she have possible done, to make her self look so...content? content...how could she be? it had to be a front, a facade. deep down, i knew she was battling with herself, i could see right through her. i was the only one that could. it angered me a bit, that she looked so happy, it wasn't fair.

i broke down her guarded walls once before, and i plan to do it again. i won't let her lock me out, i'll be the one to reveal her demons and eventually, turn them into angels.
because that's what she is, an angel.

i hate myself for telling her to never speak to me again, that ruined everything. i can still hear her telling me not to leave, telling me that she needed me. i didn't know then, but i needed her more than anything after receiving my mark. and i hate myself for letting her go through it on her own, because i know how it felt. not being able to sleep at night because of the burning, it was like a million tiny fires had spread across my forearm. and it killed me knowing she felt that pain, too.

i followed her and nicolas into the common room. nicolas walked into the boys dormitories and corrine sat down on the black, leather couch. i sucked in my breath, preparing myself to get slapped again, and sat next to her.

"can i help you" she said, quite casually.

"can we talk?" i asked as i leaned my arms on my knees.

"about" she said as she flipped through the pages of her potions book, smacking her mint flavored gum.

"um...us?" i stammered

she looked up at me with anger,

"there is no us" she seethed as she roughly shut her book and got up to walk away.

though, i didn't let her walk away. i grabbed her wrist and she turned around to look at me.

"you said you would never walk away from me" i growled.

"and you said you would never leave me...look where we are now" she whispered in my ear.

as she pulled away, i grabbed her face.

"talk to me like that again, corrine. see what happens" i smirked.

corrine's POV