Give me a Reason (a Star Wars story) [Kylo Ren x OC]

Chapter 5 (Steady Improvements)

I'd been on edge for almost 2 weeks now. The lead that Hux believed would lead us to the Rebel hideout had been a dead end and as much as I wanted to find them I was a little relieved that I could stop waiting around for news that we'd found them. It may have been back to square one for the First Order but I myself was making leaps and bounds in my training. Kylo Ren had moved on from hand to hand combat and we'd been fighting with weapons again. At first I'd gravitated towards the polearm I was so comfortable with but when he'd told me I should broaden my abilities I'd picked up a duel wield set of training blades and hadn't looked back. I held one in my right hand and the one in my left faced downwards as I held it in reverse. I'd quickly settled into this stance whereby I defend with the left downward facing blade and use the right to attack once I'd created an opening. Obviously in the midst of battle I occasionally had to shake it up so that I wasn't so predictable but for the most part I found myself sinking back into this pose by default.

"Snoke will be pleased by your progress" commented Kylo Ren as we finished up training. I'd lost again but this time barely. I'd even managed to land quite a few hits on him and I was fairly proud of myself.

"Thank you master Ren" I replied.

"You can just call me Kylo" he blurted and I had a distinct feeling he'd spoken before considering his words as he looked just as surprised by himself as I was.

"Are you sure? It seems a little informal" I asked hesitantly.

He shook his head as if clearing it and said "when it's just us you can call me Kylo".

I met his gaze for a moment before nodding. We'd become closer since that first week and I felt almost confident I could call us friends. I mean, he was still my teacher and superior, but we'd formed a strange sort of relationship where we could treat each other as one would treat a friend, at least in private anyway. Kylo appeared to have been about to say more when the training room doors opened to reveal Phasma, her chrome Armor glinting under the lights as she stood to attention and directed her field of vision towards him.

"Master Ren, it seems General Hux has found a new lead and wishes you to join him on the command deck to plan our next move" she explained and I caught my breath.

The resistance base might be found after all! I felt equal parts anxious and thrilled. Of course I was happy for the chance to deal revenge to the people who had wronged me, but at the same time I'd felt slightly conflicted if I'm to be honest since I'd found out I may have a sister who was a part of the enemy. The last 2 weeks I'd been plagued by dreams where I'd find myself fighting someone who looked just like me and losing horribly, usually ending in a horrifying death that would send me violently upright in the bed as I woke. Other times I'd dream I was staring into a mirror but then my reflection would move differently, always sneering and tearing me down with harsh words, specifically designed to uproot my worst insecurities and play on my deepest fears. Either way I ended up awake in the middle of the night shaking, and often on the verge of tears. I knew my imaginings of my sister were likely far from the truth but my mind was my own enemy at the moment and so I'd barely slept more than 4-5hrs a night. I'd begun to hope that I could just meet my sister so that I could prove to myself that I was being silly, and maybe convince her to join us if we could. Kylo had seemed fairly confident in our abilities and if I was 100% truthful, it would be nice to have someone to call family again. Then maybe I wouldn't feel so isolated all the time.

"I'll be there shortly" he told Phasma and she quickly left the way she'd come.

Kylo began picking his cloak and helmet up as he always did before he made his way back through the halls but I cleared my throat to get his attention before he could replace the helmet back on his head.