I am dedicating this chapter to ET_phone_home. I love you okay?! You amazing beautiful person!. You can marry any story you want :).
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This is a little longer but Its almost done. One chapter left after this. Enjoy :)
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(NIALL'S POV)
I know i should be scared by his words but I'm not. I know he is capable of hurting me, killing me but i don't care. I'm not sure when my protection over him overcame the protection of myself. I'm not sure why i am drawn to him or how i fell so hard. We know it wont be easy even when we decide to try. We both want each other that was clear and i know he is right. I should leave and save myself but if i leave who will be here for him? Who will save him? Who will make him better?. If i leave now nothing will have changed i could never return to him and James would still be hiding in the back round wait for his next chance to escape. I know now its my fault zayns hurting I know I'm the reason his alter personalities are this bad but i also know that i have to stay so he can beat this so he can get over his past, Get over his fears and overcome them both.
"He can try to kill me zayn he might even succeed but if i walk out of the door now I would be giving up on more then you."
"Niall please listen to me.."I cut him off i didn't want to hear the same argument over again.
"Do you trust me?"He looked at me for a moment the sighed.
"Yes i trust you."
"Then trust that I'm doing is for the best. We are in a weird situation zayn I know that. It scares me sometimes how fast i fallen for you even though all James put me through. I stopped questioning the hold you have on me and just learned to accept it and let it go and play out how it will. But the thing is zayn I have fallen for you and that means that no matter how hard or what the outcome might be I'm sticking by your side. Now i know you might see things different and you might be able to see me go but I'm not. I'm not leaving not yet. When this is over and you want me to go then i will but i have to be here to help you no matter if it takes year or until the day i die."
"Niall I don't want to see you go.! How could you even say that. You know how i feel, you know i feel that connection to, that's why i want you to go. If anything happens to you i couldn't live anymore. That might sound weird but its how i feel. I didn't want to make you feel like i didn't feel the same way because i do. I have fallen for you to. I just want you safe i need for you to stay safe."He took my hand and a small smile appeared on both of are faces.
"Believe it or not I'm safest with you. I'm not going anywhere zayn you have to trust me okay.?"
"I trust you."
"One more thing"He raised an eyebrow confused.
"What?"
"You never answered my question and I'm dying to know. Will you be mine?"His face softened and he stayed quiet for awhile. I didn't know what he was going to say it could go one of two ways. He had good reasons to say no but i still hope he somehow can find it in him to say yes. He was deep into thought before he looked back at me.
"We could both get hurt"
"I know"
"It wont be easy."
"I know"
"Sometimes ill push you away"
"I know"
