Decisions....

Chap26

Scrappy POV
**I was all in my feelings just being at the house by myself,and I was sitting in my silent house trying to figure out how stupid I could possibly be to cheat on my beautiful,pregnant,supportive,ride or die girlfriend that I would hope to wife up one day. I got very emotional,I HAD to go and confess to Khloe what I had done. I searched all around N.O just to find my baby,and when I saw her get out of her car with the kids,I waited till she walked into Chilis and got settled,so that could also give me time to stop siking myself out. I finally went into the restaurant and I saw Khloe taking care of all the kids,so I just went up to her as I felt my eyes getting glossy,and I turned her around and sat in front of her on my knees,and hugged her legs tightly as I cried like a lil bitch in her lap. She just rubbed the top of my head,messing with my curls looking worried.

Khloe:Baby what's wrong??
Scrappy:(looking up at Khloe)Look,I just need you to listen okay.
Khloe:(nods her head in agreement)
Scrappy:Before I say anything I think I need to start off with saying from the bottom of my heart that I love you,that I am in love with you and no matter what happens to us I will forever and always feel this way about you.
Khloe:(just looks at him with glossy eyes)
Scrappy:And I wanna follow that by saying,that I fucked up,and I'm so sorry for fucking up everything that I have. And-gco-
Khloe:what did you do??
Scrappy:..........
Khloe:(getting mad,and irritated)WHAT DID YOU DO??!!
Scrappy:I slept with Crystal...
Khloe:(starts crying)....... Is it yours??
Scrappy:(looking down)I don't know(looking back up)
Khloe:(gets up and leaves)

Khloe POV
**I couldn't take sitting there listening to him try and talk his way out of this bullshit. I do appreciate his attempted apology but I didn't want my kids to see us argue over this bullshit. So I left without saying a word,I went back to the house and I packed all of my stuff as fast I could so that I wouldn't run into Scrappy when he came home. I did leave him a note saying:
Dear Al'darious
I appreciate your attempted apology,and you trying to be a man about everything but I can't stay here knowing that you and my younger sister were sleeping together and you might be having a baby with her at the same time you're having a baby with me. Don't get me wrong,I still love you with everything inside of me,and I want to have a future with you but right now I can't stay here with you. Until the day comes when I make my way back to our family,I will let you know but until then the only thing I want to talk to you about are my kids so please just give me my time to digest everything that has hit me all at once.
-As I was finishing up my letter with my signature I saw a tear fall onto the paper,and I heard a key jingling in the door. The door swung open and I heard my name being yelled loudly,multiple times and when I saw Scrappy turn that corner my heart completely broke. He ran up to me and fell to his knees,and held on tightly to my legs,begging me not to leave. I was just standing there crying,I felt so weak I fell to my knees also and he just held me rocking is back and forth as he wiped my constant tears. As my sadness,decreased anger began to take over. I quickly stood up and I threw the vase that was on the counter at the wall and watched it shatter. Scrappy stood up too,and he was trying to calm me down but that only made me angrier. I started punching his chest,with a lot of unnecessary force,he grabbed my wrist and I quickly got out of his grip,and I grabbed a glass cup and threw it across the room,and I punched the wall four times creating four holes in the wall. I roughly grabbed all of the family pictures from the wall and threw them listening to them shatter. I was down to the last picture,and it was when Scrappy and I were still in high school,I was 17 and he was 18. I had my legs wrapped around his waist and he was holding my waist and we were kissing each other. When I was done examining the picture,I turned to scrappy who was just looking at me waiting for me to be done loosing my mind,and I walked over to him and showed him the picture.-

Khloe:(putting the picture up,for him to look at it)Look.
Scrappy:That was the day you moved back down here,and I had went to go pick you up from the airport.
Khloe:I know....(looking at the picture,deep in thought)Did "us" mean anything to you because,when I moved to L.A you fucked Rocky,and now you fucking Crystal. So I'm just curious to know,if you just cheat on me to test my intelligence,or if you just do it to be a dick because right now I'm thinking you do it for both reasons.
Scrappy:Baby I don't know why I do it,I just know that when I do,do it automatically think about you.
Khloe:Scrappy, can you remember what you felt like the day you saw me at that airport?
Scrappy:Yes. I felt completely excited to see you. I felt complete again,and I felt like nothing could have ruined that moment and I wouldn't take my lips off of yours if the world ended right then and there.
Khloe:Really? Did you mean it??
Scrappy:Of course. Did you feel the same??
Khloe:Yes but I meant it.
Scrappy:And you think I didn't??
Khloe:Well in this picture,while we are kissing my eyes are closed,and yours are wide open.
Scrappy:And??
Khloe:Scrappy,my eyes were closed because I felt spark when I saw you. I felt like my whole life would come back together and make sense again. My eyes were closed because I was so deep in love with you,and I wanted to cherish and savor that moment forever. My eyes were closed because I wanted to remember what it felt like to be with you,I felt like I could never be hurt again a day in my life as long as I was with you in your arms at that moment. (Constant tears running down her face) So I'm going to ask you again... Did you mean it??
Scrappy:.........(let's his head hang down,standing in silence)
Khloe:(wiping a tear swiftly)That's what I thought
-I just picked up my bags,and I grabbed my car keys and walked out the door. I jumped in my Jeep and sped off to Chico's house. I just needed a different scenery,and I just needed different family around me right now. I made it to his house,and he answered the door,looking concerned and letting me in. I sat on the couch and he of course asked me what happened but I was emotionally exhausted so I just asked him where I could lay my head down and he showed me to his fully furnished guest room,and I just layed down crying myself to sleep, slowly putting myself in a deep sleep.-