Y'all get your hobi-water. This smut is gonna be very different from my other stories. Instead of using "Y/n" I'll be using my own name just because I'm even struggling to put that and not my name in my others, so please bare with me. Thank you! I p...
TW: THIS CHAPTER COMPLAINS KNIFES, THREATENING AND OTHER MATURE CONTENT THAT CAN BE SENSITIVE TO ANYONE. PLEASE DON'T READ UNLESS YOU ARE OKAY WITH THOSE THINGS.
Hematolagnia is a blood kink/fetish. It's something I actually have, no I do not condone cutting just for this fetish or kink. Cutting isn't an okay thing and it shouldn't be joked about. This kink/fetish is associated with knife play which is a real thing in the kink world that isn't done with out the sub's AND dom's consent. This is also going to be a sadistic thing. No I do not mean to sexualize or make Yoongi out to be the bad guy or make it seem like he would actually do this to anyone for reason or not. Yoongi is a soft babie with noticable kinks (sometimes) but that does NOT mean he is into hematolagnia. I'm not writing this long ass paragraph or TW just to make my fingers numb, please read this and take caution when reading, thank you. Again, DO NOT self harm for this kink. I don't condone (recommend or support) self harm for a kink. If you are just doing that for the kink, when someone who actually has specific reasons for their scars that hurt them, they will be told "you're just doing that for attention" and they aren't. Anyways, PLEASE FOR THE SAKE OF YOUR LIFE take caution whilst reading this. ------------------------------------------------------------- My POV :
You're welcome babygirl.
Wow. I never realized that he knew so much. When he told me that he stalked my Instagram and got a file on me from PD-nim I thought he was just joking and the school did all that. I never thought someone would be so interested in my story. Not that it's a bad thing but if you think about it, it was kinda bad. I mean my grandfather was toxic and fucked with my mentality and now I'm a little, I moved out as soon as my 18th birthday hit. My mom never supported me. My dad was never around until now. I lost my virginity at 16 to prove a point. I didn't even want to do the swim team, I did it because, according to my grandparents, I had to do something. It was the worse thing ever. But also within going through all that, I got depressed and yes, I cut. At first it was just to feel pain again because I had gone numb but seeing the blood made me realize that I have Hematolagnia. A blood fetish or kink. I stopped cutting because I didn't want it to get worse or develop any further but their was blood from the blood sugar checking and when the potatoes were cut my grandpa would cut his finger so blood everywhere. Only Marcos knows about it. I just hope Yoongi doesn't find out. I don't want him to think I'm crazy. I mean I am crazy but he doesn't know more than what I told an showed on my Instagram story. If he finds out... I'm screwed. I love him a lot, yes he's an idol and can't have a relationship without being hated. Especially because of how big BTS is. On top of that, he may act and look like a hard ass but he's not and he knows he's not. But that's not why I'm worried. I'm more worried about him finding out you know... Yeah.
