Darkest Reality

PROLOGUE

I feel tired. Tired of something that I dont know.

I am afraid. Afraid to do something 'cause I'm afraid that maybe it can hurt me.

I feel lonely. It is hugging me every seconds every minute every hours every day of my life.

I am drowned in the ocean of sadness. I can't ascend in this sea of cruelness. I am tired to stand in this world with those judgemental people. I am tired to walk with them when I am always left behind.

I want to run. I love to run. I want to run away. 'Cause I can't face all those problems that I don't know. I can't face all those feelings that I have. I am tired.

So tired to the point that I want to sleep 'till forever. I can't stop overthinking. I'm drowning and still drowning in this ocean of trials. I am a great encourager to the people sorrounds me but why can't I give even a single piece of advice to myself?

I'm always distraught, feeling blue and exhausted. It's making me feel suffocated and claustrophobic. 

My breakness is on the loose and I couldn't blocked this traumatic and phobic experience again.

I'm scared to tell someone what I feel inside, because they won't understand what I'm going through.

It is so hard to live in this kind of feeling that you do not know if you will ever want to live this way, where you can hardly breathe the pain and hardship you are experiencing.

It's so hard .. But I have to keep going because I have something I feel I can't explain. As if something is about to come and change my life... My life that is full of darkness.

But my only fear is what if he is also like the people I was with when I was growing up, the people who caused all the hardships and painful experiences I had in life.

Will he stay to help me and lift me into the sea full of hardship and pain, or will he just come to make me happy, just to leave me again and let me drown in darkness...

To be continued... KimYeSoon♡