Love and Betrayal

Easing the Pain...

Today I felt the pain suffice a bit. I'd woken up to a beautiful morning. The sky outside was bright blue, not a cloud to be found. Which was odd for London. Which made it all the more spectacular. I'd eaten breakfast with ma͑ma͑n and Alastair. Although, the oatmeal tasted of sandpaper. I still enjoyed my small family time together.
Later, that day I would meet up with Lucie. We had so much to do to prepare for our parabatai ceremony. With all the traveling my family did, It kept us away from one another.
That was one if any, the bright side of things. Lucie and I had become closer. More like sisters everyday that had passed. Even when I go to your home to see her, it's hard because you're there too. And although you're nice and courteous, it's hard to look you in the eyes. Those beautiful green eyes that undo me with just one look. I glance away hoping to the angel that you don't see me blush. Or see past the mask I wear to protect myself.
Each day that goes by and you're there watching us train, gets more and more difficult. With each step I take it's as if I'm stepping on broken glass. Bleeding and cutting up my feelings all over again.
But if the alternative was to never see you or Lucie again...? It's pain that I should choose to endure.