P.S. Obsessively In Love With You

Chapter 18

Chapter 18

Nisha's POV

I talked to Matt for what felt like hours and he kept on insisting that I don't have to go back yet, but I have to talk to Hans and I'm afraid of what Lucian's gonna do kapag hindi nya ako nakita sa bahay tomorrow. Ipapahiya nya ba ako? Sasaktan? Pupuntahan rito?
Pinunasan ko ang mga luha na nasa pisngi ko. The hell is wrong with you Nisha? Bakit ka umiiyak? Ano ang iniiyak mo?! You shouldn't be scared of him. Bakit ka ganyan?!

“Ate..?“ Agad napataas ang tingin ko at nakita si Elayne na nasa may pintuan.
“Aalis ka na ba talaga bukas?”

Tumango ako,
“Kailangan na daw ako dun eh. Si kuya Matt mo ano nanaman daw pinagga-gawa sa bahay.”

She frowned,
“Umiiyak ka ba?”

I gave her a big smile,
“What makes you think that? Ah oo nga pala, ayun habang inaayos ko na yung gamit ko, nakasinghot ng alikabok, sumumpong allergy, sinipon at alam mo naman kapag sinisipon ako, yung mata ko nagluluha.”

She nodded slowly as if she understand.
“Oh..kay. Bakit di ka kasi nag-face mask? Tulungan na kita?”

“Nakalimutan ko eh and no thanks kaya ko na. Ilalagay ko na lang tong mga ibang gamit sa sala para bukas agad na kong makaalis.” I said.

Naglakad sya papunta sakin and suddenly hugged me.
“Bakit ang bilis naman kasi eh.”

I chuckled.
“Ang OA mo, ilang oras lang naman na byahe layo nung bahay ko dito kaya pwede kang pumunta dun anytime o kaya ako pupunta dito.”

She pouted,
“Sige, pero sleep over ka dito nun kapag pumunta ka rito next time.”

I smiled and even if she's taller than me, I ruffled her hair.
“Sure.”

That night, kahit sinabi ko na hindi na, tinulungan pa rin ako ni Elayne na ayusin ang mga gamit ko. I tried to sleep early that night, but everytime I fall asleep I kept dreaming about Lucian and what may possibly happen tomorrow. I would then wake up and would fall asleep again and then the cycle continues.
It was already 5:34 am when I finally stood up. My eyes were still heavy but I couldn't bring myself to sleep again.
Tulog pa sila Elayne at ako pa lang ang nakagising.
I went to the kitchen at nagtimpla muna ng kape so I could shake off the tiredness that I feel.

Nakatulala lang ako, hoping that time would just go slowly. People might say that I'm overreacting. Na OA ako. Maybe I am, but what could I do? They don't know what I feel. They're too ignorant to not know the fact that not everyone is as confident or as brave as they were.

Why am I like this?
I don't know. I honestly don't know.

I am, a normal person could've solve my problem easily, but why can't I?
I'm afraid.

I need to try.

No, no. I can't.

What would happen if I tried?

“I can't.. I ca..nt.”

“Nisha, gising ka na pala. Magluluto pa lang ako ng almusal.” I jumped slightly at the voice and saw my aunt.

“Ah, okay lang Tita, nagkaka-kape na rin naman ako.” I said at tumango sya at binuksan ang ref.

“Bakit di ka muna kumain nung tinapay? May mga palaman pa naman dito.” she said at umiling ako.

“Hindi na. okay nako rito.”

“Oh sige, hintayin mo na lang yung iluluto ko.” she said at tumingin sakin.

“Sige Tita.”

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It was 10:30 am nung nasa kotse na lahat ang mga gamit ko kasama si Annabell Lee at Evangeline. Nagpaalam na rin ako kay Finn and promised na bibisitahin ko sya sa clinic whenever I had the time (o kung hindi nakabuntot sakin si Lucian)
And kahit na I'm still very anxious of Lucian, I still am worried about Hans.
I could secretly visit him without Lucian knowing but naunahan nya na ako.
I hugged my aunt and cousin goodbye and nagpaalam kay Tito before hopping inside my car and starting my journey back home.